- May 23, 2012
Oh KSMom, I'm so sorry to hear this news. I too lost an early pregnancy and its just awful. Hang in there.
Thank you for your understanding and warmth Laila, I truly appreciate it.Laila619 said:I'm so sorry, KSmom. It doesn't matter that you've "only" been pregnant for 5 weeks, the love a mother has for her child is incredible and unlike anything else. Big hugs.
Thank you so much Coda, and I am deeply sorry for your loss.coda72 said:Just saw this thread. I hope ksmom, that you are starting to feel better. I suffered a miscarriage in late April (at nearly 9 weeks), and it is an extremely difficult thing to deal with. My husband and I are now TTC again, and hopefully things go better for us this time. If you are TTC again, hopefully you have a happy and healthy pregnancy this time around.
Thank you JGator, for sharing your story and for your wishes. I felt terribly alone when this all happened and can't describe how healing it is for me to know there are women who can relate to how I'm feeling right now.JGator said:KSMom, I am so sorry for your loss. I had a loss in Oct 2011 at 10 weeks, and I was devastated. We had some genetic testing done and found out the baby was a boy who had a trisomy that was not compatible with life. I was so fearful that another pregnancy would result in another genetic issue, but it did not. A year and a few weeks after that loss in October 2012, my healthy baby girl was born. I wish you luck in getting through this tough time. You will always remember this baby and pregnancy. I still think often that my baby girl has a big brother watching over her in heaven.
Coda, I am sorry for your loss, and I wish you the best of luck in TTC.
Bliss, thank you so much for your thoughts. I have felt a kinship with you since I first started lurking on the 'barely pregnant' thread, which I started reading as soon as I had my positive pregnancy test. You so adeptly captured the excitement and the emotion of being pregnant, and I followed your story and cried along with you as you suffered your miscarriage. When I lost my own pregnancy, I stepped away from that thread but later came back to it and fast forwarded to the point at which you rejoined with the happy news of your second pregnancy. I can only imagine how stressful that second time must have been for you and don't know that I have the courage to allow myself to be so vulnerable again. But I am so happy for you that everything worked out so beautifully for you with your little girl and now with your son on the way. Many many congrats and thank you again for being so honest about your experience, and for revisiting this darker time in your life to help console others who have experienced this terrible loss.Bliss said:I'm so sorry, ksmom. Our first pregnancy was a loss and it was one of the most painful experiences of my life. I still remember the grief like it was yesterday. I think my low point was sobbing in front of my computer while reading an online article about a dolphin that lost her little calf. Her trainers said she would just swim in a circle endlessly with her eyes closed like she couldn't bear to look upon the world. I felt like that was me. It was especially hard for DH because he had no idea how to comfort someone who was inconsolable.
I think of myself as a very strong person. But this leveled me. So I am very empathetic to you and wish I could help you. It was the first time in my life I considered taking depression or anxiety meds in my life because I truly felt like I could not handle the grief. It was like the little life made a hole in my heart that he/she could only fill and then left. I really felt like that little heartbeat was my child and loved it fiercely. Funny how that bond can form and be cemented forever before you even lay eyes on it. I'm crying for you and sending you support and love from afar.
Now, three years later with a beautiful little toddler girl and about to have a baby boy, I can promise you that things will be beautiful and promising again. My second pregnancy was ruined by anxiety, but once I had her in my arms, it was all worth it. She is so meant to be ours. I will pray that you, in due time, will have your miracle come knocking on your door again when you are both ready. With this pregnancy, I am more relaxed and while I always think of my first angel - I am happy and at peace with how things turned out. Hugs.