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justginger|1384917993|3559665 said:Yssie|1384903417|3559526 said:Oh Ginger, I'm so, so, so sorry.
I read this thread early this morning but I haven't been able to respond without crying until now. I truly believe Exacta knows exactly how you feel... our miracle boy Garett is all-black, too. When he was sick we couldn't pry his sister from his side - everywhere he went, she went, litterbox and all. She nursed him back to health as much as I did, and... God. It isn't fair, is it? I wouldn't wish the pain of losing a loved one on any other creature in the world, two-legged or four
Filly was so lucky Ginger - he got to spend all his life with a wonderful caregiver who loved him with everything she had, and he passed basking in that love - and now I just *know* that he spends his days sharing his memories and stories with Trifecta, and when they're tired they curl up together with the pieces of your heart they took with them.
I wish I had the right things to say. I wish there was something to say that could make it hurt less... but I don't think there is, maybe only lots of ::HUGS:: from your friends who understand this heartache all too well
Thank you, Yssie. Your words are beautiful. Just having people to share the sadness with helps. It's still such a shock, a massive loss to try to process in the time frame of a week. Last night Oh came around the corner into my bedroom and I actually thought, "THERE you are, Filly, I've been missing you," before my brain had time to process the situation properly. Boy did that set off the tears again.
He deteriorated so quickly - I know I'd have had trouble even adjusting to the fact that he *was* ill again, let alone how ill, and I can only imagine that you're still shocked and still processing. And oh, the aftermath really is always the worst *** that in-between time when the brain knows but the heart hasn't quite figured it out... I wasn't there when my puppy died a few years ago - he was with my parents. I finally got home a week later and I knew he wouldn't be waiting to greet me at the top of the stairs, but when I got there and he truly wasn't there - that's when my heart caught up.
You're right though, if this had to happen - I'm so relieved it happened now, and not in three weeks. I know the worrying isn't over, with your mum's recovery and treatment and your exams, and I'm sending you a bucket of dust for peace and healing... I'll be thinking of you and your DH and your crittery today.