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I don't know if this will strike you guys as macabre or inappropriate (and if it does take anyone that way, I will quite understand if you write to the mods to have it stricken), but PS has been so good for me in terms of commonality and comfort in reading of other people's experiences. I know we have threads on related topics, but I didn't see anything specific on this, and thought it might serve a purpose.
On Friday, we were told that our baby had no heartbeat at 18 weeks. We spent the weekend in the hospital experiencing a grotesque parody of birth via induced labor. Right now, I'm on home rest: my milk has come in, which hurts like hell, and the doctor put me on synthetic estrogen to promote uterine healing, which I'm sure is just making me that much more emotional. All I can think is that this is why I'm not a stupid optimist: it hurts. Alas, my body does not agree, and is all "Where's the baby? We're ready for the baby!" and, yep, that just makes it hurt more.
I think the short version is that this sucks. If any of y'all are going through something similar and need a place to vent, I think I'd appreciate not feeling quite so alone, but, again, if any of you are hurt or horrified or triggered by this, please ask the mods to take it down and I will understand. Hope all of you are well.
On Friday, we were told that our baby had no heartbeat at 18 weeks. We spent the weekend in the hospital experiencing a grotesque parody of birth via induced labor. Right now, I'm on home rest: my milk has come in, which hurts like hell, and the doctor put me on synthetic estrogen to promote uterine healing, which I'm sure is just making me that much more emotional. All I can think is that this is why I'm not a stupid optimist: it hurts. Alas, my body does not agree, and is all "Where's the baby? We're ready for the baby!" and, yep, that just makes it hurt more.
I think the short version is that this sucks. If any of y'all are going through something similar and need a place to vent, I think I'd appreciate not feeling quite so alone, but, again, if any of you are hurt or horrified or triggered by this, please ask the mods to take it down and I will understand. Hope all of you are well.