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Hi all, I''m going to start this post by saying that my issue is going to sound really stupid and superficial, and it probably is. But I''ve been experiencing sadness and depression about getting older, and it''s particularly bad today to the point that I''m near tears as I type this. The bottom line is that I''m very depressed that I have lost whatever looks I used to have. (btw, I''m 49). It all started when I was about 38 and noticed that I didn''t look very good in pictures. I found myself looking at them and saying "wow, what a bad picture of me". Then I came across old photos of myself at 24 and realized how much I''ve changed over the years. I felt like a part of me died when I saw those pictures. Some days are worse than others, but I carry around a general sadness that I look so different. Wrinkles, extra weight, those stupid dark circles around my eyes, even my teeth don''t look as good as they used to. I don''t even know why I''m placing emhpasis on this, I''m happily married and not looking to attract men or anything like that. I just mourn losing my youth, I guess. And it''s not just my appearance, I really miss the energy and enthusiasm for life I had when I was younger. I just feel so "blah" all of the time now.
I know this is stupid, especially considering the serious problems other people face, and that I may potentially face. I could be stricken with cancer tomorrow, for goodness sake. I should be grateful I have my health, good kids and a great husband. And I AM grateful for that and count my blessings every day. Sometimes doing that helps me snap out of my funk, but there are times I just can''t talk myself out of it, like today. I have to drag myself to work right now, and I am just so down. Please be kind in your criticism of me, I fully acknowledge I shouldn''t feel like this, and am ashamed of myelf for it. But I guess I was just curious if there''s anyone out there who can relate a little. Thanks for taking the time to read this, it feels good to just get it out.
I know this is stupid, especially considering the serious problems other people face, and that I may potentially face. I could be stricken with cancer tomorrow, for goodness sake. I should be grateful I have my health, good kids and a great husband. And I AM grateful for that and count my blessings every day. Sometimes doing that helps me snap out of my funk, but there are times I just can''t talk myself out of it, like today. I have to drag myself to work right now, and I am just so down. Please be kind in your criticism of me, I fully acknowledge I shouldn''t feel like this, and am ashamed of myelf for it. But I guess I was just curious if there''s anyone out there who can relate a little. Thanks for taking the time to read this, it feels good to just get it out.