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My life reads like a prank - I assume no one knows what to make of it...
I am quite the same, although wrapped up with complex-PTSD from a long term highly abusive first marriage. I have had alot of therapy to heal from this and the weird thing is I work in jewellery retail and no one in a million years would think I suffer from this at times. I'm introverted by nature, but my passion for jewellery overrides this!I have crippling anxiety, but people tend to read me as an extreme extrovert, because I am a teacher and very friendly. I think most people are shocked to find out that I am an emotional basket case at times and somewhat insecure in general.
I do feel like I'm getting better with age and therapy (I hope!), but nowhere near where I'd like to end up eventually. Progress, not perfection!
I am quite the same, although wrapped up with complex-PTSD from a long term highly abusive first marriage. I have had alot of therapy to heal from this and the weird thing is I work in jewellery retail and no one in a million years would think I suffer from this at times. I'm introverted by nature, but my passion for jewellery overrides this!
I’m afraid of the dark. I think I got it from my mother. I can’t stand it when it’s pitch black, though the usual urban light pollution is bright enough if I’m going to bed.
I’m so glad it’s not just my mother and me! I also have a terrible time trying to sleep when my husband’s away.I'm so with you! I remember walking with my friend through the building. I had to hold onto her while we walked through. I don't like the dark either. I have a REALLY hard time going to sleep when hubby isn't home.
One more thing: I LOATHE scary movies. My family knows, and hubs makes fun of me....ugh...hate scary movies....liked them better when we had a real couch, then I could hide with dh...
I know the feeling! I’m forced to be more extroverted by my job and I can fake it well enough from time to time, but some days it takes a lot of effort.When I refer to myself as an introvert people who know me, but are not particularly closest to me, they are always surprised. They always say, "I would have thought you were an extrovert."
But I'm not. I was just raised by extroverts that thought being an extrovert was 'normal' so I constantly pushed out of my comfort zone and I learned how to fake it well. It's a skill now that I use in social situations like a shield but it's not natural to me.
That I have been clinically dead for 5 minutes and have brain damage from an unfortunate drug interaction in my teens. I had an overactive thyroid misdiagnosed as Bulima and I was seeing a shrink who was using experimental treatment on me (and others) unbeknownst of course to my parents. My shrink was responsible for the deaths of 24 people and many others permanently damaged. He committed suicide rather than go to jail.
I did not participate in the Royal Commission or seek any legal redress as it would have been further damaging to my then, extremely fragile mental health. It completely changed my life but I am one of the lucky ones.