Hi Y''all,
I''m new here and am writing because I have a dilemma that I''m unsure how to solve. About 6 weeks ago, my BF proposed to me while on a trip. It was beautiful and exciting and has been something we have been looking forward to for a few years.
For months I had been giving him pictures of rings that I loved and suited my personality and lifestyle. I''m very simple and liked simple solitare rings, or a solitaire ring with a pave band. The ring he proposed with was a complete surprise and NOTHING like anything I had shown him. He gave me a very old-fashioned cluster ring (picture of mine below and link to a website that shows in better detail below) that he had picked out about 20 years ago with his grandmother when he was a young boy. It has about 30 little diamonds shaped in the design of a flower, approx. carat weight of 1.3. He never saw the ring again until 7 months ago when he bought it. (Yes he bought it 7 months ago and only gave it to me 6 weeks ago). The ring clearly has sentimental value for him as it represents his childhood and grandmother.
I''ve been trying to love it, trying to keep an open mind, and reminding myself over and over that its not the ring itself, but what it represents to us and our lives together. I feel guilty about disliking it, and materialistic and selfish. But I have been crying whenever I see other rings in magazines that I love, or see posts here and hear everyones excitement about how much they love their rings. And I do feel a bit of resentment because he clearly went with something HE loved as opposed to something he knew I would love (based on pictures I had shown him). The appraisal says the main diamond is I-1 for clarity, colour F, and cut good, while the 30 little diamonds are SI-2 - I-1 for clarity, colour G-H, and cut medium good. And the appraisal price is about $2000 lower than what he paid for it.
I tried to slowly broach the subject a few weeks back by saying since it was a cluster ring, it would be extremely difficult to find a matching band that would fit, unless it was customized to curve. I could see the panic and hurt on his face and in his voice when he asked if I wanted another ring, so I promply dropped the subject and decided to "live with it." But I can''t get over it, and I feel so selfish.
Another problem is that he had shown every single friend and family member he has (and its ALOT of people) the ring in the months before proposing to me. So his family and friends might think that I''m being picky and selfish. Plus the ring is in all our trip photos as well.
I feel truly horrible about it, and its eating away at me. We aren''t geting married for another 2 years, and I don''t know what to do. Live with it, or hurt him so horribly that I''m afriad there won''t be a wedding. A male friend''s advice was: NEVER TELL HIM! And anyhow, after the ring being bought 7 months ago, I doubt he could return it or even exchange it.
Thank you for any advice, I truly appreciate it.
Joc.
http://ringoblog.com/ring-by-type/wedding-rings/18ct-white-gold-diamond-cluster-flower-ring/
(link that shows it on a website)