Diamond2009
Rough_Rock
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- Oct 25, 2009
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I posted about 6 weeks ago about having problems with my FI, I''m sorry I don''t know how to link the previous thread.
Things have been really up and down since then and it has felt like an emotional rollercoaster. I''m finding it hard to even write this post but I feel like I need to vent because I can''t talk to anyone about it.
He has started medication for depression which seems to be helping a little but things are still really shaky. His physican recommended seeking couselling but he has choosen not to follow that up as yet.
The proposed wedding date is comming up fast and I''m starting to panic about the preparation and more importantly our relationship. There have been a few dramas with some of the plans and I am starting to question everything.
Last week he did not kiss me, touch me, hug me for nearly five days. It was only that my mom called to tell me our family dog had passed away and I started crying that he came over and comforted me.
This past weekend was a very signifigant event and while he attended with my family he did not buy me a gift or even write in a greeting card to congratulate me. Other from my family and friendship group made a big fuss and brought beautiful gifts. I was really devastated not to even recieve a small gift to acknowledge my accomplishment.
We had a big discussion the day after and I told him that if I were an outsider looking into this relationship knowing his lack of loving actions, affection and attention I would assume one of two things, either he was cheating or passively agressively trying to get me to end the relationship for the both of us.
Of course he insisted that it was neither but I feel as though it is the second. I told him that I feel that he does not love me anymore and that all feeling for me have gone and that I cannot continue in a relationship with someone who is sort of interested.
It maybe a bit naieve on my part but I want someone who finds a reason to love me every single day.
When I asked him point blank whether he was in love with me, it took him minutes to answer. I told him that if he really felt like I was wrong in asking that question, he would have protested wildly that he loved me and I was mistaken.
He asked me to give him a second chance telling me that he could try harder and that his behaviour is a result of his stress.
To me it feels more like the the twelth chance ... I told him that I am unwilling to go into the new year feeling uncertain about our relationship and I wanted things sorted one way or another whether I leave or stay will be finalise by then.
I told him I will wait a little longer to give both of us the chance to think. Also I know it is wrong but I am unwilling to end the reltionship so close to Christmas.
I am finding it difficult to concentrate at work with the relationship problems. It is so heartbreaking to think that someone you love so deeply does not feel the same way, after seven years.
It is childish also, but I am embarrased just thinking about informing our family and friends that the relationship is over.
Im not really certain what the point of this post is, but I just feel so alone and confused.
Things have been really up and down since then and it has felt like an emotional rollercoaster. I''m finding it hard to even write this post but I feel like I need to vent because I can''t talk to anyone about it.
He has started medication for depression which seems to be helping a little but things are still really shaky. His physican recommended seeking couselling but he has choosen not to follow that up as yet.
The proposed wedding date is comming up fast and I''m starting to panic about the preparation and more importantly our relationship. There have been a few dramas with some of the plans and I am starting to question everything.
Last week he did not kiss me, touch me, hug me for nearly five days. It was only that my mom called to tell me our family dog had passed away and I started crying that he came over and comforted me.
This past weekend was a very signifigant event and while he attended with my family he did not buy me a gift or even write in a greeting card to congratulate me. Other from my family and friendship group made a big fuss and brought beautiful gifts. I was really devastated not to even recieve a small gift to acknowledge my accomplishment.
We had a big discussion the day after and I told him that if I were an outsider looking into this relationship knowing his lack of loving actions, affection and attention I would assume one of two things, either he was cheating or passively agressively trying to get me to end the relationship for the both of us.
Of course he insisted that it was neither but I feel as though it is the second. I told him that I feel that he does not love me anymore and that all feeling for me have gone and that I cannot continue in a relationship with someone who is sort of interested.
It maybe a bit naieve on my part but I want someone who finds a reason to love me every single day.
When I asked him point blank whether he was in love with me, it took him minutes to answer. I told him that if he really felt like I was wrong in asking that question, he would have protested wildly that he loved me and I was mistaken.
He asked me to give him a second chance telling me that he could try harder and that his behaviour is a result of his stress.
To me it feels more like the the twelth chance ... I told him that I am unwilling to go into the new year feeling uncertain about our relationship and I wanted things sorted one way or another whether I leave or stay will be finalise by then.
I told him I will wait a little longer to give both of us the chance to think. Also I know it is wrong but I am unwilling to end the reltionship so close to Christmas.
I am finding it difficult to concentrate at work with the relationship problems. It is so heartbreaking to think that someone you love so deeply does not feel the same way, after seven years.
It is childish also, but I am embarrased just thinking about informing our family and friends that the relationship is over.
Im not really certain what the point of this post is, but I just feel so alone and confused.