I have had on-going health issues for about 3 years and it seems like for the whole 3 years SO argued all the time (we have been together 7). In the beginning of February we had the fight of all fights and he said that he was done. He coudn't take the arguing anymore but wanted to remain friends. I asked if there was someone else he was interested in and he said no. I believe he is a man of his word and I believe him unless I find out otherwise. I don't want to jump to any conclusions. He isn't interested in a relationship at all right now. I told him that it wasn't what I wanted but I couldn't make him stay. I told him that if he did find someone to tell me because I couldn't watch him fall in love with someone else.
The next week I find that I am extremely estrogen dominant. I start taking hormones to balance the estrogen out. OH. MY. GOD. It is like a huge blanket was lifted off of me. I have not felt this great in 3 years. But I also realize how horrible I have been to him. You don't know how miserable you are until you get out of it. I sent a text telling him that I feel good and I realize I treated him horribly and I know it was too late but I wanted to tell him I was sorry. He replied - thank you.
I had to stop following him on a social networking site a while ago because I was taking things he posted out of context and just getting way too emotional. Yesterday I told him that I am thinking about following him again. He replied saying it was my choice but he wasn't going to get questioned about his posts everyday. We are not together and we is not going to act like we are together. I agreed.
We have been texting and not arguing. I know it is going to take time for us to fix this if it can be fixed. I did tell him that eventually I wanted a relationship back but I know that we need to take a few steps back and learn to enjoy each other again. He hasn't really said anything about it - he is the type of person that won't say anything until he truly believes or feels it. I know he is gun shy. I know I need give it time to show him that I am not miserable anymore. Patience has not been my strong suit.
He has told me several times that he knows my heart is in the right place and I am a good person. He has nothing against me, he just can't take the arguing. I did tell him that I would like us to get along and see where things go.
I think he is confused. I need time to show him things changed with me. I know men don't get hormones at all. Neither did I really until this big change by just adding progesterone back into my system. We are going to get together this weekend. As hard as it is - I have no expectations.
The next week I find that I am extremely estrogen dominant. I start taking hormones to balance the estrogen out. OH. MY. GOD. It is like a huge blanket was lifted off of me. I have not felt this great in 3 years. But I also realize how horrible I have been to him. You don't know how miserable you are until you get out of it. I sent a text telling him that I feel good and I realize I treated him horribly and I know it was too late but I wanted to tell him I was sorry. He replied - thank you.
I had to stop following him on a social networking site a while ago because I was taking things he posted out of context and just getting way too emotional. Yesterday I told him that I am thinking about following him again. He replied saying it was my choice but he wasn't going to get questioned about his posts everyday. We are not together and we is not going to act like we are together. I agreed.
We have been texting and not arguing. I know it is going to take time for us to fix this if it can be fixed. I did tell him that eventually I wanted a relationship back but I know that we need to take a few steps back and learn to enjoy each other again. He hasn't really said anything about it - he is the type of person that won't say anything until he truly believes or feels it. I know he is gun shy. I know I need give it time to show him that I am not miserable anymore. Patience has not been my strong suit.
He has told me several times that he knows my heart is in the right place and I am a good person. He has nothing against me, he just can't take the arguing. I did tell him that I would like us to get along and see where things go.
I think he is confused. I need time to show him things changed with me. I know men don't get hormones at all. Neither did I really until this big change by just adding progesterone back into my system. We are going to get together this weekend. As hard as it is - I have no expectations.