Little Monster
Shiny_Rock
- Joined
- May 15, 2009
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I just wanted to see if anyone else had gone through this, and if so, what you ended up doing, or how you got through it. I am so scared right now that I really don''t know who to talk to - so I''m turning to you ladies.
I just found out I''m pregnant (2 positive HPT -- need a blood test to be sure though false positives are pretty rare, right?) This was completely unintended - I''m on BCP and have been really good about taking them at the same time every day & haven''t missed any pills.
My BF and I have been living together for about 5 months now, and have been together for 2 years. We''ve talked about kids, but way, way down the line. This is definitely NOT what we were planning. I''ve still got a year of grad school left & don''t have a very good job right now & really lousy health insurance... Even just getting an annual exam is a huge expense.
I am so scared right now it''s not even funny. I''m not the kind of person who has dreamed about having kids since I was little. It always seemed like maybe something I''d want later, just certainly not now. I just feel like the most un-motherly person ever.
I just start freaking out trying to read through some of the information about different abortion techniques -- which is ridiculous since I''m in nursing school. Then again, I can take all the blood & guts you can throw at me, but somehow the idea of painful OB/GYN procedures just leaves me sick to my stomach (which remarkably I haven''t really been).
I just literally cannot picture our lives with a baby in 7 or 8 months. I don''t know anyone who has gone through this and don''t really have anyone to turn to. I haven''t told my boyfriend yet (I just found out last night and he''s been working a 48-hour shift at work). I am scared to tell him - I feel awful because he trusts me to take my pills & I''ve been doing that religiously, and yet here I am. He''s not going to be angry -- just scared like me. I know this isn''t what he is planning for either.
I''m not asking what I should do -- of course you can''t tell me that - I''m just trying to see if there''s anyone else out there who has been through this and has any words of wisdom...
I just found out I''m pregnant (2 positive HPT -- need a blood test to be sure though false positives are pretty rare, right?) This was completely unintended - I''m on BCP and have been really good about taking them at the same time every day & haven''t missed any pills.
My BF and I have been living together for about 5 months now, and have been together for 2 years. We''ve talked about kids, but way, way down the line. This is definitely NOT what we were planning. I''ve still got a year of grad school left & don''t have a very good job right now & really lousy health insurance... Even just getting an annual exam is a huge expense.
I am so scared right now it''s not even funny. I''m not the kind of person who has dreamed about having kids since I was little. It always seemed like maybe something I''d want later, just certainly not now. I just feel like the most un-motherly person ever.
I just start freaking out trying to read through some of the information about different abortion techniques -- which is ridiculous since I''m in nursing school. Then again, I can take all the blood & guts you can throw at me, but somehow the idea of painful OB/GYN procedures just leaves me sick to my stomach (which remarkably I haven''t really been).
I just literally cannot picture our lives with a baby in 7 or 8 months. I don''t know anyone who has gone through this and don''t really have anyone to turn to. I haven''t told my boyfriend yet (I just found out last night and he''s been working a 48-hour shift at work). I am scared to tell him - I feel awful because he trusts me to take my pills & I''ve been doing that religiously, and yet here I am. He''s not going to be angry -- just scared like me. I know this isn''t what he is planning for either.
I''m not asking what I should do -- of course you can''t tell me that - I''m just trying to see if there''s anyone else out there who has been through this and has any words of wisdom...