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Dear Pinto,
I read your entire thread and that says a lot. I have a lot of empathy and respect for you and I relate in so many things.
I cannot relate first of all in the death of your husband although I have had my share of losses and some bad luck with men in my life. What you went through is unimaginable, it shocked me so much that I wanted to know what happened to you and how you handled this situation.
You are coming through as a stronger person and you have all along demonstrated strength, humor even at yourself, love, a lot of empathy and a lot of will to live. Kudos to you and sorry I could not be there to support more. I only found your thread a few days ago.
Now I share a lot of your background when it comes to family. I have abusive parents and I have never been good enough. I tried moving away from them ever since I was fourteen sometimes moving continents, many times countries.
What held at the end is letting go, distancing myself both geographically and emotionally and not letting it get to me. It just happened. My father is a narcissist and my mother has serious borderline personality disorder, sometimes people wonder how I became so normal. But it left its scars.
With all my degrees and trying to please them in every way and with looks, I was always a loser to them and the fat one. I am neither and today I love myself. I am happy, I am free.
I first let my father go and we are slowing coming closer baby steps at a time. My mother is I am afraid like yours someone I have to accept to be the way she is but that does not mean I will put up with it.
One of the worst things to me was that she kept putting me down as a terrible cat mom. But to me the solution is really distance. You may want to eventually consider this. You are also smart and attractive and like me you are if anything overly empathetic towards others. You will find a happy future I am sure about that but you will have to learn to eventually set boundaries with these people and with those that you cannot, you just have to be able to let go.
For now one step at a time. The courage you showed and how you got through everyday steps and chores really amazes me as not everyone would have had it in them. I just wanted you to know that we are here for you and I will look forward to hearing about your journey. Life and happiness awaits you.
I read your entire thread and that says a lot. I have a lot of empathy and respect for you and I relate in so many things.
I cannot relate first of all in the death of your husband although I have had my share of losses and some bad luck with men in my life. What you went through is unimaginable, it shocked me so much that I wanted to know what happened to you and how you handled this situation.
You are coming through as a stronger person and you have all along demonstrated strength, humor even at yourself, love, a lot of empathy and a lot of will to live. Kudos to you and sorry I could not be there to support more. I only found your thread a few days ago.
Now I share a lot of your background when it comes to family. I have abusive parents and I have never been good enough. I tried moving away from them ever since I was fourteen sometimes moving continents, many times countries.
What held at the end is letting go, distancing myself both geographically and emotionally and not letting it get to me. It just happened. My father is a narcissist and my mother has serious borderline personality disorder, sometimes people wonder how I became so normal. But it left its scars.
With all my degrees and trying to please them in every way and with looks, I was always a loser to them and the fat one. I am neither and today I love myself. I am happy, I am free.
I first let my father go and we are slowing coming closer baby steps at a time. My mother is I am afraid like yours someone I have to accept to be the way she is but that does not mean I will put up with it.
One of the worst things to me was that she kept putting me down as a terrible cat mom. But to me the solution is really distance. You may want to eventually consider this. You are also smart and attractive and like me you are if anything overly empathetic towards others. You will find a happy future I am sure about that but you will have to learn to eventually set boundaries with these people and with those that you cannot, you just have to be able to let go.
For now one step at a time. The courage you showed and how you got through everyday steps and chores really amazes me as not everyone would have had it in them. I just wanted you to know that we are here for you and I will look forward to hearing about your journey. Life and happiness awaits you.