phoenixgirl
Ideal_Rock
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Hello, my long lost fellow WWTers!
I've kept on keeping on, although perhaps with a bit less stringency. Over the summer it was so easy to make myself work out 6 times a week. Now it's usually 4.
Anyway, I'm popping in because I need to vent. Yesterday was our last day of school and last night was our faculty Christmas party.
I wound up talking to an acquaintance who is rather catty at work. (Background story: when I got engaged and weighed no more than 130, she asked me how much weight I was going to lose for the wedding. I said none. Apparently someone told her she was rude, so she gave me the worst apology I've ever gotten. "I didn't mean to say you had to lose weight. I mean, you're fine," she said, dismissively gesturing to my body.) Anyway, she kept telling me, with a lot of "I mean, seriously"s, that "everyone" (meaning the other catty women I opted not to eat lunch with after my first year, but with whom I have a rapport now that we have been coworkers for five years) has been talking about my weight loss and saying I look too skinny, but she, of course, has been my defender. She told me at least twice that the vice principal told her she's worried about me. She also said that she's lost 60 pounds since May, which is awesome, and now that she told me I could tell, but I am in general not an observant person so it hadn't sunk in since she said something. Once she told me, I could sort of see an image of her much larger walking down the hall in front of me.
Then I was hoping my actual friend would reassure me, but she just gave me this lecture about how it all boils down to your attitude, and I was like, uh huh, that's nice, but am I crazy or am I a normally sized person? I swear, if these people met me now, they would never think, ew, look at the skinny girl. I'm going to post the most recent picture I have of myself because I really feel like I am taking crazy pills!
I get that people's insecurities are engaged when you do something that they think they should do, or even when you increase your [insert salary or health or whatever here]. I also get that I was hearing this from one drunk woman who I already knew to be catty and gossipy. What bothers me is the idea that I could be too skinny, because I am just so darn sure that I am not! My stomach is flat and my arms are toned, but I still have my "just in case of famine" thighs. Yes, I'm down to a size 2, but that's when the store also carries 0 and 00, and I fit best in the curvy fit. And I have a petite frame, and I think that being small-chested makes me look skinnier. I'm attaching the most recent picture I have. Please tell me I'm not crazy to think I am perfectly normal and healthy!

I've kept on keeping on, although perhaps with a bit less stringency. Over the summer it was so easy to make myself work out 6 times a week. Now it's usually 4.
Anyway, I'm popping in because I need to vent. Yesterday was our last day of school and last night was our faculty Christmas party.
I wound up talking to an acquaintance who is rather catty at work. (Background story: when I got engaged and weighed no more than 130, she asked me how much weight I was going to lose for the wedding. I said none. Apparently someone told her she was rude, so she gave me the worst apology I've ever gotten. "I didn't mean to say you had to lose weight. I mean, you're fine," she said, dismissively gesturing to my body.) Anyway, she kept telling me, with a lot of "I mean, seriously"s, that "everyone" (meaning the other catty women I opted not to eat lunch with after my first year, but with whom I have a rapport now that we have been coworkers for five years) has been talking about my weight loss and saying I look too skinny, but she, of course, has been my defender. She told me at least twice that the vice principal told her she's worried about me. She also said that she's lost 60 pounds since May, which is awesome, and now that she told me I could tell, but I am in general not an observant person so it hadn't sunk in since she said something. Once she told me, I could sort of see an image of her much larger walking down the hall in front of me.
Then I was hoping my actual friend would reassure me, but she just gave me this lecture about how it all boils down to your attitude, and I was like, uh huh, that's nice, but am I crazy or am I a normally sized person? I swear, if these people met me now, they would never think, ew, look at the skinny girl. I'm going to post the most recent picture I have of myself because I really feel like I am taking crazy pills!
I get that people's insecurities are engaged when you do something that they think they should do, or even when you increase your [insert salary or health or whatever here]. I also get that I was hearing this from one drunk woman who I already knew to be catty and gossipy. What bothers me is the idea that I could be too skinny, because I am just so darn sure that I am not! My stomach is flat and my arms are toned, but I still have my "just in case of famine" thighs. Yes, I'm down to a size 2, but that's when the store also carries 0 and 00, and I fit best in the curvy fit. And I have a petite frame, and I think that being small-chested makes me look skinnier. I'm attaching the most recent picture I have. Please tell me I'm not crazy to think I am perfectly normal and healthy!
