CushionSolitaireLover
Rough_Rock
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I''ve never posted but lurk and awful lot!
I''ve been searching the forum and reading anything I can that pertains to my situation. I think it''ll be easier to just post something!
I just broke up with my boyfriend of over 3 years. When we first officially met...I felt like he was the one for me. He felt so right! And, he still does. We really had such a great relationship, got along so well, had a lot of fun together, etc. I can''t imagine a more perfect person, ever. We went through a lot this year; there was a huge, tragic, loss in his family. With that, I got to meet his extended family and fell in love with them. Not only do I love the thought of spending the rest of my life with him, I love the thought of being a part of that family!
The only bump in the road is that he cannot commit. We''ve talked about it a lot in the past, he said maybe some day, and I set that issue aside. Being that I am not in a hurry to get married, I decided to just enjoy our relationship for what it was- wonderful.
A few weeks ago he told me that he will never be able to commit fully to me. No marriage, no children. And as much as he is my dream man, I won''t sacrifice what''s really important to me. I want that commitment, I want that security, and I want a family. He said that he could never be that person, but that he wishes he could be. He didn''t want me to leave.
I decided to break up with him and move out (we were living together). I know that I deserve to be with someone who''d go to the end of the world to keep me. And I want that. I have my problems, issues of my own, but I know that I am worth it.
And though this break up is real, not a game, and I fully intend on getting on with my life... I still can''t imagine being with anyone else. The fact that we were so good together, that after 3 years we are still in love, and that it is over is hard to deal with. I can''t believe that he''s not fighting for me, that he''s looking forward to it being a couple months from now (which I''m supposing means that he''s looking forward to not be affected by our breakup as strong as he is now.) He''s looking forward to feeling healed. And that tells me that, even in that time frame, he''s not going to see what an idiot he is for letting me go.
He''s so stubborn about this issue and refuses to get counseling to get past the cause of these feelings (childhood, divorce). I don''t know if he will change, ever. He could if he really wanted.
I know a lot of you out there don''t believe in "the one" or such. But have any of you been in a similar situation? Everything about your relationship was perfect, you feel like you complete each other (while still remaining very independent of each other) but he told you he''d never commit - and so you left him because you refused to give up your value on marriage and children....
If you''ve been in a similar situation, what happened? Was that it? Done?
And so you know, as strongly as I feel about wanting to spend my life with him and as much as we love each other still... I''m never going to go back to him unless he magically, and honestly, changes- realizes that he doesn''t want to spend his life without me. I have no intentions of talking to him, I''m making this a clean break.
I''ve been searching the forum and reading anything I can that pertains to my situation. I think it''ll be easier to just post something!
I just broke up with my boyfriend of over 3 years. When we first officially met...I felt like he was the one for me. He felt so right! And, he still does. We really had such a great relationship, got along so well, had a lot of fun together, etc. I can''t imagine a more perfect person, ever. We went through a lot this year; there was a huge, tragic, loss in his family. With that, I got to meet his extended family and fell in love with them. Not only do I love the thought of spending the rest of my life with him, I love the thought of being a part of that family!
The only bump in the road is that he cannot commit. We''ve talked about it a lot in the past, he said maybe some day, and I set that issue aside. Being that I am not in a hurry to get married, I decided to just enjoy our relationship for what it was- wonderful.
A few weeks ago he told me that he will never be able to commit fully to me. No marriage, no children. And as much as he is my dream man, I won''t sacrifice what''s really important to me. I want that commitment, I want that security, and I want a family. He said that he could never be that person, but that he wishes he could be. He didn''t want me to leave.
I decided to break up with him and move out (we were living together). I know that I deserve to be with someone who''d go to the end of the world to keep me. And I want that. I have my problems, issues of my own, but I know that I am worth it.
And though this break up is real, not a game, and I fully intend on getting on with my life... I still can''t imagine being with anyone else. The fact that we were so good together, that after 3 years we are still in love, and that it is over is hard to deal with. I can''t believe that he''s not fighting for me, that he''s looking forward to it being a couple months from now (which I''m supposing means that he''s looking forward to not be affected by our breakup as strong as he is now.) He''s looking forward to feeling healed. And that tells me that, even in that time frame, he''s not going to see what an idiot he is for letting me go.
He''s so stubborn about this issue and refuses to get counseling to get past the cause of these feelings (childhood, divorce). I don''t know if he will change, ever. He could if he really wanted.
I know a lot of you out there don''t believe in "the one" or such. But have any of you been in a similar situation? Everything about your relationship was perfect, you feel like you complete each other (while still remaining very independent of each other) but he told you he''d never commit - and so you left him because you refused to give up your value on marriage and children....
If you''ve been in a similar situation, what happened? Was that it? Done?
And so you know, as strongly as I feel about wanting to spend my life with him and as much as we love each other still... I''m never going to go back to him unless he magically, and honestly, changes- realizes that he doesn''t want to spend his life without me. I have no intentions of talking to him, I''m making this a clean break.