I''m sorry, iwanna. I know how difficult it is to lose a grandparent, and although it does get better with time, there''s still a hole that nothing can fill. All my best to your and your family.
I am so sorry for your loss. It does take time. The loss of a family member, even when we know that it is part of life, affects us in ways that we just cannot imagine and can only experience when it occurs. Time is the only thing that helps ease the pain. We are here for you while you go through the process. Sending you lots of love and support during this difficult time.