Hi ladies,
I am really happy I found you all! This is my first post although I have lurked for a little while
I became a LIW when I lost my job two months ago. If it were not for the boy, I would have definitely moved straight back to my home country (MANY miles away). I miss my family and my culture so much (plus I am running out of money and it is very difficult for me to find a new job here because of my foreign qualifications). After some serious thinking, I decided that I was only willing to stay and go through the whole visa application/job hunt/new qualifications process if he officially committed. Fortunately, he said that he did want to marry me! I was very happy!!! Since then, I have been working really hard - organising a visa, applying for jobs and studying. It has been very very stressful.
After that conversation, I pretty much expected a proposal within the month. In fact, my dad visited and so I thought the timing was perfect as my boy could discuss it with him if he wanted. Needless to say, there has been no proposal (AND he didn''t say anything at all to my dad). I have tried to ask him many times "when" we would get married. I have also had a few breakdowns over the fact that we are not engaged/married. He tries to comfort me and always says we will get married and I believe that he truly thinks that. He said it is just such a big decision. What??? It was such a big decision for me to stay and, after our conversation, I had to take some irrevocable actions (like spending $4000 on visa/study fees). Turns out that I have jumped off the cliff all by myself and am now just waiting for him to join me. This is a horrible feeling (soooo much resentment). I am carrying all the risk. I have explained all this to him (resentment, risk, how uneasy I feel not being married yet etc) but I still think a proposal is a long way off (i.e. not before the end of the year). This is really NOT what I signed up for or expected. I am incredibly hurt and angry.
I have no doubt that he loves me and that he believes he will marry me ... some day. He just can''t take the next step for whatever reason. The fact that I am unhappy with the current situation does not seem enough for him to do it yet. He is just not ready and, obviously, I can''t make him propose.
We have been together a year (lived together for 6 months) and are both 30. We are otherwise super happy and wonderful together (although this is really eating away at the relationship and my self esteem - also there is a lot of pressure on the relationship given the stakes). ANY advice would be soooooo much appreciated ... xx
I am really happy I found you all! This is my first post although I have lurked for a little while
I became a LIW when I lost my job two months ago. If it were not for the boy, I would have definitely moved straight back to my home country (MANY miles away). I miss my family and my culture so much (plus I am running out of money and it is very difficult for me to find a new job here because of my foreign qualifications). After some serious thinking, I decided that I was only willing to stay and go through the whole visa application/job hunt/new qualifications process if he officially committed. Fortunately, he said that he did want to marry me! I was very happy!!! Since then, I have been working really hard - organising a visa, applying for jobs and studying. It has been very very stressful.
After that conversation, I pretty much expected a proposal within the month. In fact, my dad visited and so I thought the timing was perfect as my boy could discuss it with him if he wanted. Needless to say, there has been no proposal (AND he didn''t say anything at all to my dad). I have tried to ask him many times "when" we would get married. I have also had a few breakdowns over the fact that we are not engaged/married. He tries to comfort me and always says we will get married and I believe that he truly thinks that. He said it is just such a big decision. What??? It was such a big decision for me to stay and, after our conversation, I had to take some irrevocable actions (like spending $4000 on visa/study fees). Turns out that I have jumped off the cliff all by myself and am now just waiting for him to join me. This is a horrible feeling (soooo much resentment). I am carrying all the risk. I have explained all this to him (resentment, risk, how uneasy I feel not being married yet etc) but I still think a proposal is a long way off (i.e. not before the end of the year). This is really NOT what I signed up for or expected. I am incredibly hurt and angry.
I have no doubt that he loves me and that he believes he will marry me ... some day. He just can''t take the next step for whatever reason. The fact that I am unhappy with the current situation does not seem enough for him to do it yet. He is just not ready and, obviously, I can''t make him propose.
We have been together a year (lived together for 6 months) and are both 30. We are otherwise super happy and wonderful together (although this is really eating away at the relationship and my self esteem - also there is a lot of pressure on the relationship given the stakes). ANY advice would be soooooo much appreciated ... xx