allycat0303
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Hi Everyone,
I need some advice. As many of you know, I'm a cardiothoracic resident. Currently, I am on a mandatory research year. Now for the past 4 years, on research year, the resident's from my program takes a second job with Skyservice (airplane charter company). Bascially it's an air ambulance, you go to pick up sick patients and bring them to a destination. This is not a requirement or anything, it's just something we do. I started in July, and was only recently started to be called to take flights. I left for my first flight October 30th 2011. I am currently writing for Amsterdam waiting for a patient to arrive, and I will be escorting him back to Houston, Texas.
So the problem is this. I am freaking terrified of planes. I only got on my first flight 2 years ago, and was heavily medicated and tried to get off the plane. I've gotten better, to the point where I don't need to be medicated, but getting on the planes gets me anxious, my stomach is in knots, and it's a constant mental battle to do freak out. Basically, it's not torture, but it's really unpleasent. I am on the plane awaiting the crash, the ENTIRE flight.
On the other hand, it's the money. They pay more money then I can earn anywhere else (over 6 figures AFTER taxes) in about 6 months. I currently am recieving a regular resident salary, but it's not much. Obviously, the money earned from this job would allow me to enjoy life a lot. The thing is, we don't really need the money. Our house is almost paid off. We own my car free and clear, but my husband bought a jeep this summer which is not paid off, and it's driving me crazy.
And I was crying via Skype because I missed my husband and my cats so much. We slept with video-skype on the whole night, so we could see each other if we woke up during the night. I get homesick fast.
I should do this because:
a) Money, I want to make a significant contribution to the finances. All this time, my husband has been pulling in the big salary
b) If I'm forced to fly, I will eventually get over my fear
c) It is a chance to travel! Skyservice pays for hotel, food everything, and I've never travelled.
d) The experience of handling critical patients on my own
I should not do this because:
a) The plane scares me so much
b) I get homesick very quickly.
Just some additional information: We travel in a small Lear Jet. The plane needs to stop every 3-4 hours to refuel. So right now I'm in Amsterdam. Basically just to get home, this is the flights:
Amsterdam-----> Iceland (3.5 hours, stop refuel)
Iceland------> Goose Bay Newfoundland (3 hours, stop refuel)
Goose Bay-------> Montreal (2 hours, stop and refuel)
Montreal------> Houston (4 hours, stop, refuel and deliver patient to the hospital)
Houston-----> Montreal (4 hours)
So 16.5 hours on a plane for a girl who is scared of planes. It seems like too much.
I just need to decide once I arrive in Montreal if I'm going to quit! Realistically they can have another flight for me once I land in Montreal. I can decline, or continue (or their might be nothing).
Thanks everyone!
I need some advice. As many of you know, I'm a cardiothoracic resident. Currently, I am on a mandatory research year. Now for the past 4 years, on research year, the resident's from my program takes a second job with Skyservice (airplane charter company). Bascially it's an air ambulance, you go to pick up sick patients and bring them to a destination. This is not a requirement or anything, it's just something we do. I started in July, and was only recently started to be called to take flights. I left for my first flight October 30th 2011. I am currently writing for Amsterdam waiting for a patient to arrive, and I will be escorting him back to Houston, Texas.
So the problem is this. I am freaking terrified of planes. I only got on my first flight 2 years ago, and was heavily medicated and tried to get off the plane. I've gotten better, to the point where I don't need to be medicated, but getting on the planes gets me anxious, my stomach is in knots, and it's a constant mental battle to do freak out. Basically, it's not torture, but it's really unpleasent. I am on the plane awaiting the crash, the ENTIRE flight.
On the other hand, it's the money. They pay more money then I can earn anywhere else (over 6 figures AFTER taxes) in about 6 months. I currently am recieving a regular resident salary, but it's not much. Obviously, the money earned from this job would allow me to enjoy life a lot. The thing is, we don't really need the money. Our house is almost paid off. We own my car free and clear, but my husband bought a jeep this summer which is not paid off, and it's driving me crazy.
And I was crying via Skype because I missed my husband and my cats so much. We slept with video-skype on the whole night, so we could see each other if we woke up during the night. I get homesick fast.
I should do this because:
a) Money, I want to make a significant contribution to the finances. All this time, my husband has been pulling in the big salary
b) If I'm forced to fly, I will eventually get over my fear
c) It is a chance to travel! Skyservice pays for hotel, food everything, and I've never travelled.
d) The experience of handling critical patients on my own
I should not do this because:
a) The plane scares me so much
b) I get homesick very quickly.
Just some additional information: We travel in a small Lear Jet. The plane needs to stop every 3-4 hours to refuel. So right now I'm in Amsterdam. Basically just to get home, this is the flights:
Amsterdam-----> Iceland (3.5 hours, stop refuel)
Iceland------> Goose Bay Newfoundland (3 hours, stop refuel)
Goose Bay-------> Montreal (2 hours, stop and refuel)
Montreal------> Houston (4 hours, stop, refuel and deliver patient to the hospital)
Houston-----> Montreal (4 hours)
So 16.5 hours on a plane for a girl who is scared of planes. It seems like too much.
I just need to decide once I arrive in Montreal if I'm going to quit! Realistically they can have another flight for me once I land in Montreal. I can decline, or continue (or their might be nothing).
Thanks everyone!