Hey all -
First, Happy Holidays to everyone. I haven''t posted much lately, but have been following everyone''s stories from afar.
I guess I am here tonight because I just need some supportive words - even if they come from strangers.
My boyfriend and I had been together for three and a half years, until I broke it off on Tuesday night. We''ve been talking about getting married since January, but he''d been dragging his feet. He was always "not quite ready." For several months, he was vague as to why, but about six months ago he told me that the biggest holdup was the fact that he just wasn''t sure if he wanted to have kids. And he knew that I did.
When it became clear this week that he wasn''t planning on proposing by the end of this year, we had a long talk. I asked him if he still felt the same way, and he said he did.
So I told him that it just seemed like we wanted different things - I wanted to get married and have a family - and he wasn''t sure he did, or would ever feel that way. He wanted me to give him more time, but I was afraid it could be one of those situations where another six months or six years could slip by before he made a definitive decision one way or another.
So now it''s over, and I feel awful. Every day this week has just been a chore to get through, and I am dreading Christmas. He was supposed to spend it with me and my family. And now, of course, he won''t be there.
My family means well...they''re trying very hard to support me, but sometimes their efforts just make me feel even more sad. They don''t understand why I am not ready to talk about it yet.
I am doing my best to hang in there, but its hard because I love him, and I was so sure that we were supposed to be together.
And right now, I am not really sure of anything anymore.
I don''t expect anyone to say anything that will make it better. I guess I just needed to vent.
Thanks for listening.
First, Happy Holidays to everyone. I haven''t posted much lately, but have been following everyone''s stories from afar.
I guess I am here tonight because I just need some supportive words - even if they come from strangers.
My boyfriend and I had been together for three and a half years, until I broke it off on Tuesday night. We''ve been talking about getting married since January, but he''d been dragging his feet. He was always "not quite ready." For several months, he was vague as to why, but about six months ago he told me that the biggest holdup was the fact that he just wasn''t sure if he wanted to have kids. And he knew that I did.
When it became clear this week that he wasn''t planning on proposing by the end of this year, we had a long talk. I asked him if he still felt the same way, and he said he did.
So I told him that it just seemed like we wanted different things - I wanted to get married and have a family - and he wasn''t sure he did, or would ever feel that way. He wanted me to give him more time, but I was afraid it could be one of those situations where another six months or six years could slip by before he made a definitive decision one way or another.
So now it''s over, and I feel awful. Every day this week has just been a chore to get through, and I am dreading Christmas. He was supposed to spend it with me and my family. And now, of course, he won''t be there.
My family means well...they''re trying very hard to support me, but sometimes their efforts just make me feel even more sad. They don''t understand why I am not ready to talk about it yet.
I am doing my best to hang in there, but its hard because I love him, and I was so sure that we were supposed to be together.
And right now, I am not really sure of anything anymore.
I don''t expect anyone to say anything that will make it better. I guess I just needed to vent.
Thanks for listening.
