fieryred33143
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I'm hoping that some of you ladies can help me figure out some things. I'm making an appointment with the therapist that helped me through my baby blues because I'm feeling a bit off and not sure where it is coming from. I feel like it is due to anxiety issues but all of the articles out there speak in general terms.
I'm having a really hard time concentrating on things, particularly at work. Every day I make a checklist of what I'm going to get done that day and at the end of the day, nothing is checked off. As soon as I start to work on my list, I freeze and do something else-mostly just clicking away mindlessly around the internet. There have been a lot of times that I have wanted to scream at work because I can't concentrate and feel like my life everything is out of control. I am not overwhelmed as I am only working on one project but I still feel like I can't get a grip or can't put my feet on the ground.
At home I feel a little more in control but I'm still not doing well there either. My home is a complete mess and every day I just let it be until I get moments of incredible energy where I do everything at once even if I'm awake until 4 or 5am.
With DD I'm having A LOT of anxiety issues. I stare at her while she's eating because I fear she is going to choke so I just stopped giving her table foods all together because I can't handle it. I usually check on her 1 or 2 times overnight but there are some nights where it is so bad that I check on her 8 or 9 times in an hour. I get into bed, walk to her room, check on her, walk back to my room, get into bed, and get up to do it again. I hear her crying/coughing/gagging through the monitor when she really isn't and I spend a large amount of time debating whether I should get up and check on her. I always do because then I feel that if I don't, something terrible will happen to her. I have thoughts that someone will sneak into the house and kidnap her overnight so I wake up and check her bedroom window, the front door, and the patio door before finally deciding to just sleep in her room.
I want to say that it's all normal first time mom stuff but DD is 10 months and I feel like I should have gotten over these issues already. Also, at work there are times when the lack of concentration is so bad that my hands shake because I KNOW I have to get stuff done and I KNOW I am putting my job in jeapordy but I cannot focus.
I'm just wondering if anyone can help me figure out what is going on. ETA: I have never suffered or been diagnosed with anxiety or depression issues in the past.
I'm having a really hard time concentrating on things, particularly at work. Every day I make a checklist of what I'm going to get done that day and at the end of the day, nothing is checked off. As soon as I start to work on my list, I freeze and do something else-mostly just clicking away mindlessly around the internet. There have been a lot of times that I have wanted to scream at work because I can't concentrate and feel like my life everything is out of control. I am not overwhelmed as I am only working on one project but I still feel like I can't get a grip or can't put my feet on the ground.
At home I feel a little more in control but I'm still not doing well there either. My home is a complete mess and every day I just let it be until I get moments of incredible energy where I do everything at once even if I'm awake until 4 or 5am.
With DD I'm having A LOT of anxiety issues. I stare at her while she's eating because I fear she is going to choke so I just stopped giving her table foods all together because I can't handle it. I usually check on her 1 or 2 times overnight but there are some nights where it is so bad that I check on her 8 or 9 times in an hour. I get into bed, walk to her room, check on her, walk back to my room, get into bed, and get up to do it again. I hear her crying/coughing/gagging through the monitor when she really isn't and I spend a large amount of time debating whether I should get up and check on her. I always do because then I feel that if I don't, something terrible will happen to her. I have thoughts that someone will sneak into the house and kidnap her overnight so I wake up and check her bedroom window, the front door, and the patio door before finally deciding to just sleep in her room.
I want to say that it's all normal first time mom stuff but DD is 10 months and I feel like I should have gotten over these issues already. Also, at work there are times when the lack of concentration is so bad that my hands shake because I KNOW I have to get stuff done and I KNOW I am putting my job in jeapordy but I cannot focus.
I'm just wondering if anyone can help me figure out what is going on. ETA: I have never suffered or been diagnosed with anxiety or depression issues in the past.