MrsWhitney
Shiny_Rock
- Joined
- Jul 19, 2012
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I am not sure this is the right place, but I am in ICU, without friends near (I am normally a California and New Yorker). I cannot seem to see the joy in the Holiday? My favourite one, at that.
I thought I would beat cancer. I really did. And maybe there will be a miracle....but right now, I have a bed sore, a broken heart as I sell off jewelry for a Christmas with my loved ones.
I am 30. I know that I am lucky. People pass much younger. But those of you who knew me as a UCLABelle and the MrsWhitney, know I have been around a decade off and on.
Has anyone else had a similar outcome? How do you cope? I feel that what once was my favourite time of year, is now...its over.
With my medical copays, experimental medications....I just, want to crawl up and cry. Any similar stories is appreciated (hopefully with good endings?).......
I close my eyes, and dream of my family all together----and that seems impractical.
I thought I would beat cancer. I really did. And maybe there will be a miracle....but right now, I have a bed sore, a broken heart as I sell off jewelry for a Christmas with my loved ones.
I am 30. I know that I am lucky. People pass much younger. But those of you who knew me as a UCLABelle and the MrsWhitney, know I have been around a decade off and on.
Has anyone else had a similar outcome? How do you cope? I feel that what once was my favourite time of year, is now...its over.
With my medical copays, experimental medications....I just, want to crawl up and cry. Any similar stories is appreciated (hopefully with good endings?).......
I close my eyes, and dream of my family all together----and that seems impractical.