Hoping&Waiting
Rough_Rock
- Joined
- Aug 6, 2007
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- 82
wow...I am overwhelmed by disappointment right now...
Heres the story: So even though my boyfriend has done everything he can to make me think were getting engaged in the summer..i didnt want to believe it because I wanted SOO badly for it to be sooner. I thought he was saying those things so that I would be surprised if he did do it sooner.
Well....I have recently found out that he JUST, i mean JUST as in today, started looking at the picture of what my ring MIGHT look like in order to have it custom made. I had myself convinced it was already in the process of being made and it would be happening soon. And I know I should be so happy that its happening at all...I just am so overcome by sadness and disappointment IN MYSELF that I would let myself get excited and start to HOPE that an engagement was near. I dont know why I would read into things like that and I dont know why I would make myself believe this. I feel like such an idiot to be sitting here in tears when he has done nothing wrong and actually is following the timeline exactly as he had earlier outlined.
Uggg...heres to waiting another 8 months.
Heres the story: So even though my boyfriend has done everything he can to make me think were getting engaged in the summer..i didnt want to believe it because I wanted SOO badly for it to be sooner. I thought he was saying those things so that I would be surprised if he did do it sooner.
Well....I have recently found out that he JUST, i mean JUST as in today, started looking at the picture of what my ring MIGHT look like in order to have it custom made. I had myself convinced it was already in the process of being made and it would be happening soon. And I know I should be so happy that its happening at all...I just am so overcome by sadness and disappointment IN MYSELF that I would let myself get excited and start to HOPE that an engagement was near. I dont know why I would read into things like that and I dont know why I would make myself believe this. I feel like such an idiot to be sitting here in tears when he has done nothing wrong and actually is following the timeline exactly as he had earlier outlined.
Uggg...heres to waiting another 8 months.