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Brilliant_Rock
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Our whole system is driving me crazy!
I don''t want to rush my current relationship. I really don''t. Furthermore, I have a promise ring from my darling BF, and we''ve had a couple pre-wedding planning conversations (where, flowers, etc, but certainly not when). We''re young, he''s in school, I''m going to grad school next year, and this should be a nice, comfortable pace, BUT I still get so damn anxious about him leaving me in the cold after years of dating.
I feel pressured to have this marriage thing locked down by now. Almost all my friends from high school are married or engaged, and several have started on families. I wish i could get reassurance from the BF every day that after all these hard times and school and everything that we''ll get married, but because it would be "pressuring" and "nagging" I avoid the subject almost always. I don''t feel like I can be 100% honest about how important marriage and engagement is to me. It''s even worse lately because it''s interview season for law students and pretty much this entire month I need to avoid stressing him out about anything.
I guess... I wish I didn''t need it so bad, that I could just be one of those relaxed, cool, urban girls who plan to get married in their mid-30s "at the earliest."
I don''t want to rush my current relationship. I really don''t. Furthermore, I have a promise ring from my darling BF, and we''ve had a couple pre-wedding planning conversations (where, flowers, etc, but certainly not when). We''re young, he''s in school, I''m going to grad school next year, and this should be a nice, comfortable pace, BUT I still get so damn anxious about him leaving me in the cold after years of dating.
I feel pressured to have this marriage thing locked down by now. Almost all my friends from high school are married or engaged, and several have started on families. I wish i could get reassurance from the BF every day that after all these hard times and school and everything that we''ll get married, but because it would be "pressuring" and "nagging" I avoid the subject almost always. I don''t feel like I can be 100% honest about how important marriage and engagement is to me. It''s even worse lately because it''s interview season for law students and pretty much this entire month I need to avoid stressing him out about anything.
I guess... I wish I didn''t need it so bad, that I could just be one of those relaxed, cool, urban girls who plan to get married in their mid-30s "at the earliest."