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My younger self was very unhappy with my body and constantly berating myself. I consider myself lucky to buy $4 bread sometimes and enjoy it (normal bread is about $1 here), and buy “expensive” groceries (even though I don’t really but I feel like I can and that’s great for me). My family isn’t poor but I remember feeling poor as a student lol so I would be very picky with groceries. At home groceries are free xD
I think I’m at the best point of my life now, where I’m still moderately young but I’m also comfortable and most importantly, mentally I’ve kind of settled down into loving myself most of the time and being happy. I also have the most amazing husband. There is no way things could get any worse than how I was mentally when I was younger, so there’s that.
Now I’m struggling a lot with spending money on a diamond, it’s a few percent of my savings (maybe a bit less cause I didn’t include the credit from trading in the old diamond and cash I’ve raised from selling stuff) and there’s more income coming in each month. Still feels like a big expenditure to me and I struggle with guilt. I don’t want to wait to upgrade because I want to enjoy the diamond now. Oh well.
Younger 18-year-old me’s absolute, end-goal, biggest dream was to own a Chanel bag (I have two, thrifted, and I’ll be selling them to add funds to the diamond). Now I don’t like designer bags at all. Designer bags wear out and get ugly but diamonds and gold are forever (also 3 times the price). Maybe in another 10 years I will think I want to buy an apartment and I’ll find my diamond dream hilarious, cause buying a moderate diamond is laughable compared to the cost of an apartment.
I think I’m at the best point of my life now, where I’m still moderately young but I’m also comfortable and most importantly, mentally I’ve kind of settled down into loving myself most of the time and being happy. I also have the most amazing husband. There is no way things could get any worse than how I was mentally when I was younger, so there’s that.
Now I’m struggling a lot with spending money on a diamond, it’s a few percent of my savings (maybe a bit less cause I didn’t include the credit from trading in the old diamond and cash I’ve raised from selling stuff) and there’s more income coming in each month. Still feels like a big expenditure to me and I struggle with guilt. I don’t want to wait to upgrade because I want to enjoy the diamond now. Oh well.
Younger 18-year-old me’s absolute, end-goal, biggest dream was to own a Chanel bag (I have two, thrifted, and I’ll be selling them to add funds to the diamond). Now I don’t like designer bags at all. Designer bags wear out and get ugly but diamonds and gold are forever (also 3 times the price). Maybe in another 10 years I will think I want to buy an apartment and I’ll find my diamond dream hilarious, cause buying a moderate diamond is laughable compared to the cost of an apartment.
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