Over the last two days, I have learned that my FI, well ex-FI, doesn''t want to get married. It has not been easy but maybe posting this will somehow help my closure. I feel lost, so heart-broken, confused.. so many things all at once. Just can''t stop crying. Had to tell my son that there''s no marriage. Somehow I have to believe that the life that we were to have will never happen.
And he''s gone for 3 more weeks so we''re supposed to talk Wed. to talk more about whether we continue w/us or not, go to therapy or just split. It doesn''t sound like he really wants an us anymore. Says he really hasn''t let me in on his thoughts/doubts over the years, 3 years, and that he never really thought about marriage, not like he has now or is now. He doesn''t feel what he thinks he should feel.
Anyway, that''s my update.
And he''s gone for 3 more weeks so we''re supposed to talk Wed. to talk more about whether we continue w/us or not, go to therapy or just split. It doesn''t sound like he really wants an us anymore. Says he really hasn''t let me in on his thoughts/doubts over the years, 3 years, and that he never really thought about marriage, not like he has now or is now. He doesn''t feel what he thinks he should feel.
Anyway, that''s my update.