mia1181
Brilliant_Rock
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Wow this is dangerous territory.... I''m almost there.... 9 days left until my wedding and I was doing so well at bottling this all up. But after reading through your posts I realize that I am going through a lot of similar issues.
1. Lack of sleep- Well actually I am sleeping, but I dream all night and it''s like I am present during my dreams and not resting so I wake up feeling like I haven''t slept at all. I make until 10 or 11 AM everyday before I just want to sleep! I am getting enormous bags under my eyes.
2. Career change- I am in a major rut. I went to college to be a teacher, and did an excellent job as a student teacher. But after college I realized I could get a similar salary as a nanny and have a lot more freedom in my work. Well, here I am 2.5 years into being a fulltime professional nanny and I feel like I have nothing to show for it. I work with a special-needs child which definitely has it''s joys, but it is leaving me so burnt out. But when I think of going back into teaching I feel so lost and out-of-the-loop. I have no idea how I would ever get hired even though I do have my credential. And why did I want to be a Social Studies teacher? Couldn''t I have picked something that is actually in demand? I feel so stuck because my Bachelor''s is useless for any other career. And I''ve wasted time when I should have been working towards my Masters. Instead I have been working 55+ hours per week with 2 weeks vacation and NO sick/personal days. I am so tired and drained all the time and then I get the pleasure of answering that dreaded question "so, what do you do?" and then I get to say "nanny" and watch as people assume that I must be uneducated, or paid under the table, or whatever.
3. FI and I are thinking about moving somewhere with a lower cost of living. It freaks me out. The risk and the change is very overwhelming. But I want to start a family and I really don''t see it happening here. Gosh I''d like to own a house too!
4. My partially paralyzed dog is also stressing me. I just want him to be a normal dog. I mean I am fine with his disabilities but gosh could I just take him for a freakin walk! So now I need to be looking for a wheelchair but there is a chance that a wheelchair will just injure him more and he will get worse. So what is he just stuck in the house all day? I know I shouldn''t be whining about this because HE doesn''t seem to notice. But hell I do!
Hmmm... funny that the wedding planning really isn''t a problem. Right now life is just stressful.
1. Lack of sleep- Well actually I am sleeping, but I dream all night and it''s like I am present during my dreams and not resting so I wake up feeling like I haven''t slept at all. I make until 10 or 11 AM everyday before I just want to sleep! I am getting enormous bags under my eyes.
2. Career change- I am in a major rut. I went to college to be a teacher, and did an excellent job as a student teacher. But after college I realized I could get a similar salary as a nanny and have a lot more freedom in my work. Well, here I am 2.5 years into being a fulltime professional nanny and I feel like I have nothing to show for it. I work with a special-needs child which definitely has it''s joys, but it is leaving me so burnt out. But when I think of going back into teaching I feel so lost and out-of-the-loop. I have no idea how I would ever get hired even though I do have my credential. And why did I want to be a Social Studies teacher? Couldn''t I have picked something that is actually in demand? I feel so stuck because my Bachelor''s is useless for any other career. And I''ve wasted time when I should have been working towards my Masters. Instead I have been working 55+ hours per week with 2 weeks vacation and NO sick/personal days. I am so tired and drained all the time and then I get the pleasure of answering that dreaded question "so, what do you do?" and then I get to say "nanny" and watch as people assume that I must be uneducated, or paid under the table, or whatever.
3. FI and I are thinking about moving somewhere with a lower cost of living. It freaks me out. The risk and the change is very overwhelming. But I want to start a family and I really don''t see it happening here. Gosh I''d like to own a house too!
4. My partially paralyzed dog is also stressing me. I just want him to be a normal dog. I mean I am fine with his disabilities but gosh could I just take him for a freakin walk! So now I need to be looking for a wheelchair but there is a chance that a wheelchair will just injure him more and he will get worse. So what is he just stuck in the house all day? I know I shouldn''t be whining about this because HE doesn''t seem to notice. But hell I do!
Hmmm... funny that the wedding planning really isn''t a problem. Right now life is just stressful.
could come to the ceremony only, but the reception (poolside or beachside at a 5 star resort) isn''t suitable for kids. Then the fiasco, I can''t even go into it. The kids can be left for other friends destination weddings, but there seems to be a problem with ours for some reason. One SIL even said, well I don''t know about getting them babysat until the day, I will decide at the ceremony whether I need to bring them to the dinner - like WTF!! They are not invited! Anyway, all my friends have sorted their kids out, yet FI family have decided it sounds like a great time to have one big family holiday and have totally forgotten that we are flying to paradise for our wedding. Yes, I probably sound selfish but I want to hang out with our close friends and family for a few days without naughty kids running around everywhere. And these are the types of kids that dictate everything, like our casual morning brunch at the hotel the day after the wedding will have to coincide with when the kids are hungry and the minute they finish eating, then breakies over. I just want to relax and have fun and not worry about the little ones. Don''t get me wrong, I adore my newphews, but I don''t want them at the wedding.
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