My DH and I have been fighting non-stop for like a YEAR.
For a while, we blamed it on the stress of wedding planning.
But the wedding is over now and we are still fighting non-stop. We both seem to react to each other's actions very strongly and have no patience for each other. Screaming matches, walking away from each other, the works.
In between, we do have days when we have talks, and we hug, and we feel hopeful. I did some research and it is my guess that we're in constant power struggle mode. We definitely love each other.
I am getting really, really scared that we won't be able to come out of this state. There are times when DH puts in the effort and is extra nice but I feel like he's doing some things he knows I don't like as if to assert his independence. When I met him quite a few years ago he had a habit of doing a couple of shots a night, which I hated. For quite a while, I'm talking YEARS, he had stopped doing that and seems like he's picked the habit back up in the last month or so. He knows it's something I absolutely hate and I feel like he's doing it on purpose. I haven't said anything because I feel like he's just waiting for me to say something and I am afraid what I'll hear is "it's no big deal" and "this is something you knew about me from day one" etc. Plus I'm thinking if he's looking to get a reaction so that he can say those things to me, he may just stop on his own when he doesn't get the reaction he was hoping for.
I am not as sociable as he is, and I know he goes out a lot less than he would probably like. I'd say he goes out twice a month with people from work, sometimes less, sometimes more. I also understand he needs to get away from me sometimes because since I run a business from home, I am always here. I get plenty of alone time, but he doesn't. Today is his day off and he went out for a few drinks and poker. I wonder if once or twice a month is just too little freedom and he resents me for it. I've never told him "you can't go" but I think he knows I wouldn't be too thrilled if he wanted to go out all the time.
I feel like now that we're married his going back to his two shots a day is a message kind of like "I can do what I want" and "you can't control me". I realize this doesn't make him a drunk, but I just don't like it...especially because I feel he's doing it on purpose
I don't know what to do. We went through counseling one time and it really helped us. But with the tons of $ we spent on the wedding he is fighting me on going again. I feel like the relationship is priority #1 but I can understand his resistance. Plus, it's not like he loves therapy - although he did get quite a bit out of it and even got to the point he was going to see the therapist by himself for his own issues.
We have been together for about 9 years and are in our late 30s...no kids...he is supportive of my goals and dreams and is a good guy in general...genuine, caring, helps around the house, makes me laugh. I am emotional, reactive, have abandonment issues, are less social than he is, and definitely don't "take care of him" in the typical sense (I don't cook often, etc.) But I am good to him.
We are in trouble, and I don't know what to do.
What do you see in this post? What do you think? What would you do?
For a while, we blamed it on the stress of wedding planning.
But the wedding is over now and we are still fighting non-stop. We both seem to react to each other's actions very strongly and have no patience for each other. Screaming matches, walking away from each other, the works.
In between, we do have days when we have talks, and we hug, and we feel hopeful. I did some research and it is my guess that we're in constant power struggle mode. We definitely love each other.
I am getting really, really scared that we won't be able to come out of this state. There are times when DH puts in the effort and is extra nice but I feel like he's doing some things he knows I don't like as if to assert his independence. When I met him quite a few years ago he had a habit of doing a couple of shots a night, which I hated. For quite a while, I'm talking YEARS, he had stopped doing that and seems like he's picked the habit back up in the last month or so. He knows it's something I absolutely hate and I feel like he's doing it on purpose. I haven't said anything because I feel like he's just waiting for me to say something and I am afraid what I'll hear is "it's no big deal" and "this is something you knew about me from day one" etc. Plus I'm thinking if he's looking to get a reaction so that he can say those things to me, he may just stop on his own when he doesn't get the reaction he was hoping for.
I am not as sociable as he is, and I know he goes out a lot less than he would probably like. I'd say he goes out twice a month with people from work, sometimes less, sometimes more. I also understand he needs to get away from me sometimes because since I run a business from home, I am always here. I get plenty of alone time, but he doesn't. Today is his day off and he went out for a few drinks and poker. I wonder if once or twice a month is just too little freedom and he resents me for it. I've never told him "you can't go" but I think he knows I wouldn't be too thrilled if he wanted to go out all the time.
I feel like now that we're married his going back to his two shots a day is a message kind of like "I can do what I want" and "you can't control me". I realize this doesn't make him a drunk, but I just don't like it...especially because I feel he's doing it on purpose
I don't know what to do. We went through counseling one time and it really helped us. But with the tons of $ we spent on the wedding he is fighting me on going again. I feel like the relationship is priority #1 but I can understand his resistance. Plus, it's not like he loves therapy - although he did get quite a bit out of it and even got to the point he was going to see the therapist by himself for his own issues.
We have been together for about 9 years and are in our late 30s...no kids...he is supportive of my goals and dreams and is a good guy in general...genuine, caring, helps around the house, makes me laugh. I am emotional, reactive, have abandonment issues, are less social than he is, and definitely don't "take care of him" in the typical sense (I don't cook often, etc.) But I am good to him.
We are in trouble, and I don't know what to do.
What do you see in this post? What do you think? What would you do?