Well, it comes and goes. The feeling of "it's never going to happen" that is. It comes in spells, and then it passes. I'm having one of those months where all I can think of is the posibility of getting engaged soon... it's crazy. I so badly want that commitment and it really just tears at my heartstrings every day that passes by and it doesn't happen. Near christmas-time I thought it would happen then, then came new years and valentine's day passed, now it's spring. Nothing exciting in spring, aside from the beautiful weather. I am just a little sad and sick of waiting. We've had "the" talk about our future, timelines, etc. so that is not the issue... he wants to commit, and is going to propose sometime this year, but WHEN! I know i've said it, and even have preached against thinking like this, but I've been "lapped" by my friends. Friends who have dated their bf's for less than 2 years, already married, and are trying to have kids. Friends who shouldn't be engaged, like, not-good-for-eachother! So it makes me sad to wait, wait, and wait, when I know we have an awesome relationship, have been with my bf for 7 years, but they all have something I want so badly... something in my mind should be so simple, but I know it is not that simple. I know that in time, at the right time, it will happen when everything is right... we are both on the same page, ready to move foward and start the rest of our lives together.
I guess I just need a pick me up.....anything will do, just feeling down!
I guess I just need a pick me up.....anything will do, just feeling down!
