- May 14, 2006
One of my friends is after mailing a group of us to the pub tonight and I have such a feeling that he''s about to announce that he''s gotten engaged. Not sure why I have this feeling as there''s been no talk about it, but I cant shake it off. What''s annoying me more is my reaction to it. Im happy for them, but I cant stop thinking when will it be my turn (even though I know we''re purchasing the ring in July). Its really annoying me that Im having these thoughts when I should be really happy for them, without this niggle in the back of my mind. When we go to the pub tonight, if they do announce it, Im just really worried that I wont be able to throw myself into their celebrations, and I know that''s really selfish of me. Just the last time one of our group got engaged, I got all the questions about when are myself and bf going to do it, as we''re going out the longest and Im just not in the mood for all those questions tonight as how do you answer them! If we are going to get engaged, we''re going to do it, so stop asking me! Maybe Im blowing the whole thing out of proportions and they mightn''t be engaged at all, but its unusual for us to have pub night on a tuesday, especially since the whole of Ireland have been drinking from Friday through to our Bank Holiday yesterday. Im so annoyed with myself at the moment!