somedaysunday
Rough_Rock
- Joined
- Sep 21, 2011
- Messages
- 84
Ladies, I officially need your help.
Okay, per your (very good) previous advice, I know I need to *chill out* and wait a bit longer before testing the waters with my BF of 8-9 months.
But I honestly don't know what's wrong with me! I just can't stop thinking about it - about how I know I want to spend the rest of my life with him. About a wedding. And kids. I'll be 29 in a few days, and before I met BF, I was in a 4 year relationship from 23-27. I never EVER had these feelings (ahem, obsession) about marrying my ex. Maybe it's because I'm older; or maybe the difference is that now I'm sure it's right.
What's killing me is, what if I'm completely out on this limb by myself? I can't get past the fear that I've made all of it up in my head. I know he loves me - but what if I'm totally off base and he doesn't actually even see a future with me? I have no trust in my ability to see what's really there (that's some baggage, I guess).
So here I am, with so many diamond ring banner ads that it's scary (HOW do you get rid of those??). I can't help but think about my ideal timeline/future - but be afraid that I'm totally clueless.
The other complicating factor is that I'm in my 3rd and final year of law school. Not only has the outrageous senioritis started to get to me, but the fact that I have no idea what kind of job I'm going to get, or where, has just started to DRIVE ME BONNNNKERS!!
Help!
SS
Okay, per your (very good) previous advice, I know I need to *chill out* and wait a bit longer before testing the waters with my BF of 8-9 months.
But I honestly don't know what's wrong with me! I just can't stop thinking about it - about how I know I want to spend the rest of my life with him. About a wedding. And kids. I'll be 29 in a few days, and before I met BF, I was in a 4 year relationship from 23-27. I never EVER had these feelings (ahem, obsession) about marrying my ex. Maybe it's because I'm older; or maybe the difference is that now I'm sure it's right.
What's killing me is, what if I'm completely out on this limb by myself? I can't get past the fear that I've made all of it up in my head. I know he loves me - but what if I'm totally off base and he doesn't actually even see a future with me? I have no trust in my ability to see what's really there (that's some baggage, I guess).
So here I am, with so many diamond ring banner ads that it's scary (HOW do you get rid of those??). I can't help but think about my ideal timeline/future - but be afraid that I'm totally clueless.
The other complicating factor is that I'm in my 3rd and final year of law school. Not only has the outrageous senioritis started to get to me, but the fact that I have no idea what kind of job I'm going to get, or where, has just started to DRIVE ME BONNNNKERS!!
Help!
SS