IrishEyes
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I know it has been forever since I posted anything on here! I do lurk still and am amazed at how well everyone is doing, how beautiful the bling still is!! It''s been a hectic year for me, so I''ve been somewhat absent from the boards however I''ve never forgotten how much fun I had talking on here and how many wonderful people I "met"
I don''t know if this is asking too much, but I am in desperate need of prayers. This past week has been an emotional rollercoaster. On Sept. 11, as I was watching a memorial program on TV, my father called me to tell me my grandmother was in the hospital with a brain tumor. They didn''t know much at that point, so I told him I''d be at the hospital the next day to see her. I was so worried, of course. However the next day I recieved some great news on my end - I found out I was pregnant! Very early pregnant, only 2 and half weeks, but still, I was elated.
My grandmother was admitted to surgery at Rush hospital here in Chicago on Friday. Rush is one of the leading nuerological hospitals in the country and to make it even better, the surgeon was the chief of nuerology who performed her surgery. She did so well! My family was ecstatic that she made it through effortlessly.
However, things with my situation have taken a turn. The problem is, 6 years ago I was pregnant and didn''t know it until my fallopian tube ruptured. Turned out the baby was in the tube and I had an ectopic pregnancy. Needless to say, I lost that tube and was left with only one. The process was a nightmare, it was so painful both physically and emotionally. a few years later I lost my right ovary as well due to some problems. I also had early stage 1 cervical cancer 2.5 years ago which they caught early enough to treat and no recurrance so far.
last night, I noticed some achiness on my left side, the side with my only tube and ovary. I panicked and my husband and I went to the ER. they did some tests and an ultrasound. the doctor then said he saw what looked like a small cyst on my left ovary and some swelling in the region of my tube/ovary. They also saw nothing going on in the uterus, but that since it''s so early in the pregnacny,it''s normal not to see anything yet. The blood test showed my HCG levels, the pregnancy hormone, to be in the upper 300''s. He told me it''s too early to tell anything yet, but that I need to be kept under carefull servailance and repeat blood test every 48 hours. I followed up with my doctor today and she said that if the blood test I have tomorrow evening is in the 600''s, things will be looking good, at least for now. HCG levels are supposed to increase 50-60% every 48 hours in a normal pregnancy. However if the level is still low, it will be an indication that something is wrong in the pregnancy and another possible ectopic pregnancy might be the culprit.
I am a wreck, I''m absolutely devasted that I might go through this again. My husband and I want this baby so much. I''m scared because I dont FEEL pregnant. Everyone, including my doctor says that''s normal, that it''s just too early, but I''m worried because aside from the achiness on my left side ( probably a bad sign) I don''t feel like this pregnancy will work out. I''m trying to think positive, but all I keep having is flashbacks to 6 years ago when I went through this. I feel cursed and I''m hating my body right now - when I should be loving it and being happy that I''m pregnant. I''m so scared that I''ll have that test and the levels won''t be high enough. I''m absolutely terrified.
So I need prayers please. Please pray for my husband and I and that we can actually have this child and that I can actually experience a healthy pregnancy. We''ve been through so much in the past 6 years, It doesn''t seem fair that I may have to relive this nightmare again. If I lose this fallopian tube, I won''t ever be able to concieve naturally again. We would have to look into in-vitro, which we definitely cannot afford. I praying to God that this pregnancy is ok.
Thank you all, I miss you all so much, it''s good to be back on tonight!!
I don''t know if this is asking too much, but I am in desperate need of prayers. This past week has been an emotional rollercoaster. On Sept. 11, as I was watching a memorial program on TV, my father called me to tell me my grandmother was in the hospital with a brain tumor. They didn''t know much at that point, so I told him I''d be at the hospital the next day to see her. I was so worried, of course. However the next day I recieved some great news on my end - I found out I was pregnant! Very early pregnant, only 2 and half weeks, but still, I was elated.
My grandmother was admitted to surgery at Rush hospital here in Chicago on Friday. Rush is one of the leading nuerological hospitals in the country and to make it even better, the surgeon was the chief of nuerology who performed her surgery. She did so well! My family was ecstatic that she made it through effortlessly.
However, things with my situation have taken a turn. The problem is, 6 years ago I was pregnant and didn''t know it until my fallopian tube ruptured. Turned out the baby was in the tube and I had an ectopic pregnancy. Needless to say, I lost that tube and was left with only one. The process was a nightmare, it was so painful both physically and emotionally. a few years later I lost my right ovary as well due to some problems. I also had early stage 1 cervical cancer 2.5 years ago which they caught early enough to treat and no recurrance so far.
last night, I noticed some achiness on my left side, the side with my only tube and ovary. I panicked and my husband and I went to the ER. they did some tests and an ultrasound. the doctor then said he saw what looked like a small cyst on my left ovary and some swelling in the region of my tube/ovary. They also saw nothing going on in the uterus, but that since it''s so early in the pregnacny,it''s normal not to see anything yet. The blood test showed my HCG levels, the pregnancy hormone, to be in the upper 300''s. He told me it''s too early to tell anything yet, but that I need to be kept under carefull servailance and repeat blood test every 48 hours. I followed up with my doctor today and she said that if the blood test I have tomorrow evening is in the 600''s, things will be looking good, at least for now. HCG levels are supposed to increase 50-60% every 48 hours in a normal pregnancy. However if the level is still low, it will be an indication that something is wrong in the pregnancy and another possible ectopic pregnancy might be the culprit.
I am a wreck, I''m absolutely devasted that I might go through this again. My husband and I want this baby so much. I''m scared because I dont FEEL pregnant. Everyone, including my doctor says that''s normal, that it''s just too early, but I''m worried because aside from the achiness on my left side ( probably a bad sign) I don''t feel like this pregnancy will work out. I''m trying to think positive, but all I keep having is flashbacks to 6 years ago when I went through this. I feel cursed and I''m hating my body right now - when I should be loving it and being happy that I''m pregnant. I''m so scared that I''ll have that test and the levels won''t be high enough. I''m absolutely terrified.
So I need prayers please. Please pray for my husband and I and that we can actually have this child and that I can actually experience a healthy pregnancy. We''ve been through so much in the past 6 years, It doesn''t seem fair that I may have to relive this nightmare again. If I lose this fallopian tube, I won''t ever be able to concieve naturally again. We would have to look into in-vitro, which we definitely cannot afford. I praying to God that this pregnancy is ok.
Thank you all, I miss you all so much, it''s good to be back on tonight!!
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