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Ideal_Rock
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Hi All,
I am 38 now and have been out of the workforce since I had my first child 10 1/2 years ago. It was a decision that my husband and I made together and then we went on to have 4 kids total. I do have a B.A. and had a great career. but I know that being out of the workforce so long, I would never be competitive.
I find myself day dreaming about working again and going to grad school. And I feel guilty since my kids are still young (ages 3-10) I still have 2 kids in preschool.
The original plan was for me to go to grad school when my youngest starts high school and then start to work so when all the kids are out of the house, I have something for me.
But I don''t know if I can wait that long and I feel guilty about it. I feel guilty since we don''t need the income for me working and I feel like it makes me a bad mom to want something more. I posted before about my boys having some issues and sometimes I just feel like I''m going nuts being home. Meeting other moms for lunch, playgroups, etc or even volunteering is not doing it for me. I miss the rush of working and using my brain!
I brought this up to my husband and he was LESS than supportive. He was like, we had a deal and you agreed to stay home and thats that. It felt SO 1950s, and thats not who I though he was and now I''m feeling trapped in my house.
I know other working moms must think I''m ungrateful and nuts for missing work. I love bieng with my kids but I also miss being with other adults and using my brain. Day after day of cleaning, making small talk with cliqy moms at school pick ups, laundry, etc and never never getting a break from my 2 aspgerers sons is making me a bit nuts.
I am 38 now and have been out of the workforce since I had my first child 10 1/2 years ago. It was a decision that my husband and I made together and then we went on to have 4 kids total. I do have a B.A. and had a great career. but I know that being out of the workforce so long, I would never be competitive.
I find myself day dreaming about working again and going to grad school. And I feel guilty since my kids are still young (ages 3-10) I still have 2 kids in preschool.
The original plan was for me to go to grad school when my youngest starts high school and then start to work so when all the kids are out of the house, I have something for me.
But I don''t know if I can wait that long and I feel guilty about it. I feel guilty since we don''t need the income for me working and I feel like it makes me a bad mom to want something more. I posted before about my boys having some issues and sometimes I just feel like I''m going nuts being home. Meeting other moms for lunch, playgroups, etc or even volunteering is not doing it for me. I miss the rush of working and using my brain!
I brought this up to my husband and he was LESS than supportive. He was like, we had a deal and you agreed to stay home and thats that. It felt SO 1950s, and thats not who I though he was and now I''m feeling trapped in my house.
I know other working moms must think I''m ungrateful and nuts for missing work. I love bieng with my kids but I also miss being with other adults and using my brain. Day after day of cleaning, making small talk with cliqy moms at school pick ups, laundry, etc and never never getting a break from my 2 aspgerers sons is making me a bit nuts.