Samantha Red
Shiny_Rock
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- Jan 9, 2007
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I know I am just being irrational but I was awake at 4 this morning with lots of negative thoughts going through my mind and it is driving me crazy.
I am sure every other bride has this but of course at 4 in the morning you feel like you are very much alone.
Bascially pretty much everything; dress, rings, shoes, tiara, is different to how I first imagined they would be when I started planning two years ago. I am also feeling very angry at myself for not having lost the weight I wanted to lose and I feel like that is forcing me to compromise on the dress, rather than ending up with the dress of my dreams. I have had two years to get this sorted for goodness sake and I haven''t. My dress is being custom made and I can still make changes to that as the skirt part still only exists in calico form. My shoes are nice, but not amazing, but I went for comfort over glamour. My tiara has been custom made to fit with the dress, but is smaller and less sparkly than I thought it would be ( having the hair trial tomorrow so should have a better idea then). We collected our wedding rings on Saturday and I have ended up with something different to the diamond shared prong band I wanted in the beginning. I thought I loved my make up trial, but now think I will look like a transvetite. To cap it all I have a double chin large enough for a family to live in.
I know I need to lighten up and accept everything for what it is and enjoy the day and be happy to be marrying the man I love so much so how do I do that? The problem is this is my second marriage and I definitely don''t plan to do it again. Anyone else feel like this at all? Please help calm me down
I am sure every other bride has this but of course at 4 in the morning you feel like you are very much alone.
Bascially pretty much everything; dress, rings, shoes, tiara, is different to how I first imagined they would be when I started planning two years ago. I am also feeling very angry at myself for not having lost the weight I wanted to lose and I feel like that is forcing me to compromise on the dress, rather than ending up with the dress of my dreams. I have had two years to get this sorted for goodness sake and I haven''t. My dress is being custom made and I can still make changes to that as the skirt part still only exists in calico form. My shoes are nice, but not amazing, but I went for comfort over glamour. My tiara has been custom made to fit with the dress, but is smaller and less sparkly than I thought it would be ( having the hair trial tomorrow so should have a better idea then). We collected our wedding rings on Saturday and I have ended up with something different to the diamond shared prong band I wanted in the beginning. I thought I loved my make up trial, but now think I will look like a transvetite. To cap it all I have a double chin large enough for a family to live in.
I know I need to lighten up and accept everything for what it is and enjoy the day and be happy to be marrying the man I love so much so how do I do that? The problem is this is my second marriage and I definitely don''t plan to do it again. Anyone else feel like this at all? Please help calm me down