laughwithme
Brilliant_Rock
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- Nov 12, 2008
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I feel like my constant obsessing over the proposal is starting to ruin it for my boyfriend. I feel like he isn''t excited, like I''m making it a chore for him. I really don''t want it to be this way. At this point, it is nearly impossible for him to surprise me - I''ve waited for over a year (we''ve been together 3+,) and I have a way of turning every potential situation into a proposal. I''ve let myself down over and over. Resentment has begun to set in, though some weeks are better than others. I''ll get moody about it and be short with him, and when he asks what''s wrong, I don''t lie, I tell him flat out that I''m just struggling with the wait. It''s not even about me, and more that I feel terrible for him. I have put so much pressure on him and though I try to not nag, it''s impossible to hold out for too long and not bring it up.
Is there even a chance he is excited to propose, or have I totally ruined it with my obsessiveness?
Is there even a chance he is excited to propose, or have I totally ruined it with my obsessiveness?