Wedding Feeling down...

[Octavia]

Not completely wedding related, but kind of. I''m just feeling blue right now, especially because school finished last week but our competition to see who gets on the staff of our Law Review and journals started right after finals and it''s a killer. AWFUL. And I''m missing my friend''s bridal shower this weekend because of it, since I can''t spend 10 hours (either mentally or time-wise) driving round-trip with this paper hanging over my head. She has another shower in a couple weeks which I''ll definitely be able to attend, but I''m really bummed about this one because it''s in our hometown, so I would have gotten to see my family and hang out with some old friends, but it''s just not gonna happen. I feel like a bad friend and a bad bridesmaid.

To top it off, FI is away until mid-June and it''s next-to-impossible to reach him except by email, and I really miss hearing his voice. He travels a lot, so I''m used to that, but usually it''s easier to reach him.

Anyway, I just needed to vent a bit

On the bright side, my cat completely shredded several of the 430+ pages I had to read for this thing. And I let him. It felt kind of theraputic.

 

[SarahLovesJS]

Oh Octavia I am so sorry!

It sounds like things are rough there right now. Here's some get on Law Review PS dust! I know you can do it! I hope you get to talk to your FI soon. I am sorry you're missing this bridal shower, but at least you get to see your friend soon at another one. Just keep doing your best and remember to take time to breathe and relax every once and a while! ((Hugs))

ETA: Fixed a typo.

 

[Octavia]

Thanks for the hugs and kind words, Sarah! You''re always so sweet

I''m sure things will get better as soon as I turn this paper in, I just feel really guilty about missing the shower tomorrow so I think that magnifies things.

 

[SarahLovesJS]

No problem, I know I certainly need some pushes to keep me going sometimes! Being a hard-worker is always nice, but sometimes it sucks!

But don''t feel guilty, you''re still a great friend, it''s just that something like this needs to come first!

 

[Gypsy]

Go ahead and vent sweetie. It sounds like are dealing with A LOT of stuff and could really use a few hours break. Can you take a nice bubble bath or something pampering for like an hour? It's a quick break, but it might restore you. My roomate in lawschool used to paint her nails when she got stressed. I swear she went through miles of polish. But the mindless pampering kept her from going insane but it was quick enough that she could justify the break. ((HUGS))

GOOD KITTY!

 

[brazen_irish_hussy]

I know how that is.

Go kitty. My department in college was well known because at the end of ever year, the seniors would bring drafts of their senior thesis and burn them. It was a lot of fun and did really help for the stress.

As for the law school thing, I can only tell you to do what a friend of mine did. She kept a file of all the stupid things Dan Quayle said and whenever she was feeling stressed she would say to herself "If Dan Quayle made it through law school, so can I". It helped her a lot.

 

[Octavia]

Thanks, Gypsy and B_I_H. I''m feeling a little better today because FI called this morning, it was so good to talk to him. And I''ve resigned myself to sitting home and finishing this note, it is one of those "you have to do what you have to do" situations, I guess. My friend understands, although I think she''s a little sad that I''m not there.

LOL at the Dan Quale thing. Fortunately, this isn''t something I need to do in order to graduate, but they put tremendous pressure on us to be on law review if possible, or at least one of the journals, and keep saying how much we''ll regret it if we don''t. It''s only 11 pages plus endnotes, so it really shouldn''t be so difficult, but for some reason I''m just struggling with it. The really really important part (final exams) is over already, whew.

I''ve got a facial scheduled for the day it gets turned in, so at least I can look forward to a little pampering then!