Confessions of a Control Freak

[ihy138]

I had a panic attack yesterday because I couldn't plug in my laptop anywhere and my touchpad wasn't working during the time I needed to do an assignment for school. When things don't go as I plan it makes me freak out a little (okay, a lot).

 

[Autumnovember]

Hi, my name is AN and I am a control freak.

I'm a little bit different though, in the aspect that I take my controlling nature more as a love of being independent.

I do not like relying on anyone for anything because I like things done by ME because I know they'll get done the correct way.

I was recently the MOH for my best friends wedding and I think I did surprisingly well with toning down my controlling nature.

One things I'm REALLY big about is driving. I DO NOT like ANYONE except myself and one other person to drive. Hate it. Terrifies the crap out of me and I always feel like I'm about to vomit all over. It's definitely a control thing. I don't like knowing someone else has control of the car while I helplessly sit in the passengers side. I even notice myself pressing the imaginary "breaks" when I'm in the passenger seat. And I ALWAYS look with the person when they're reversing/turning/anything. I also always feel the need to remind them that the light has turned RED, just in case they don't see it. My husband absolutely can't stand this but I always say its better to have 4 eyes than 2

Also, I find my controlling personality as a source of determination and motivation.

I think as I've gotten older, I have learned to tone it down A LOT. I used to be really bad and and it was a total turn off in terms of personality.

 

[Gypsy]

Hi, my name is AN and I am a control freak.

I'm a little bit different though, in the aspect that I take my controlling nature more as a love of being independent.

I do not like relying on anyone for anything because I like things done by ME because I know they'll get done the correct way.

I was recently the MOH for my best friends wedding and I think I did surprisingly well with toning down my controlling nature.

One things I'm REALLY big about is driving. I DO NOT like ANYONE except myself and one other person to drive. Hate it. Terrifies the crap out of me and I always feel like I'm about to vomit all over. It's definitely a control thing. I don't like knowing someone else has control of the car while I helplessly sit in the passengers side. I even notice myself pressing the imaginary "breaks" when I'm in the passenger seat. And I ALWAYS look with the person when they're reversing/turning/anything. I also always feel the need to remind them that the light has turned RED, just in case they don't see it. My husband absolutely can't stand this but I always say its better to have 4 eyes than 2

Also, I find my controlling personality as a source of determination and motivation.

I think as I've gotten older, I have learned to tone it down A LOT. I used to be really bad and and it was a total turn off in terms of personality.

AN it's funny cause my therapist was surprised that I actually PREFER to have others drive and have NO issues with flying-- considering the blood drawing issue. Apparently the driving/flying thing is quite often a problem most control freaks have. The imaginary break thing is one she asked me about too. Have you ever talked to anyone about it?

 

[Autumnovember]

Hi, my name is AN and I am a control freak.

I'm a little bit different though, in the aspect that I take my controlling nature more as a love of being independent.

I do not like relying on anyone for anything because I like things done by ME because I know they'll get done the correct way.

I was recently the MOH for my best friends wedding and I think I did surprisingly well with toning down my controlling nature.

One things I'm REALLY big about is driving. I DO NOT like ANYONE except myself and one other person to drive. Hate it. Terrifies the crap out of me and I always feel like I'm about to vomit all over. It's definitely a control thing. I don't like knowing someone else has control of the car while I helplessly sit in the passengers side. I even notice myself pressing the imaginary "breaks" when I'm in the passenger seat. And I ALWAYS look with the person when they're reversing/turning/anything. I also always feel the need to remind them that the light has turned RED, just in case they don't see it. My husband absolutely can't stand this but I always say its better to have 4 eyes than 2

Also, I find my controlling personality as a source of determination and motivation.

I think as I've gotten older, I have learned to tone it down A LOT. I used to be really bad and and it was a total turn off in terms of personality.

AN it's funny cause my therapist was surprised that I actually PREFER to have others drive and have NO issues with flying-- considering the blood drawing issue. Apparently the driving/flying thing is quite often a problem most control freaks have. The imaginary break thing is one she asked me about too. Have you ever talked to anyone about it?

I actually really love to fly. Nope - because now I make sure I'm always the one to drive, haha! I just get anxiety over it if someone else drives. I start thinking totally irrational thoughts like "do they see the red light?" and "do they see the car thats coming towards us? I hope we don't back into them." It actually makes me an aggressive driver because I don't trust anyone on the road at all.

 

[Sooie]

My worst is my car. For some reason I can't stand to for the inside to get dirty. Like at all. I cringe when people jump in and get dirt or mud in it. Ugggh, I won't even let my SO borrow it anymore. I have to go on this weird vacuuming frenzy any time I feel it getting dirty. The outside- who cares, I wash it eh sometimes. I think I started crying one time my guy dropped a Subway sandwich loaded with veggies and it all fell in the hard to reach crack between the seats. I know it is not logical, but it is my one little sanctuary where everything can be immaculate and perfect... Oh and I do Swiffer the house all the freakin time. I love Swiffers! Everyone jokes that I should do commercials for them! It is hot where we live, we walk around barefoot, I need the floor to feel clean.

 

[House Cat]

Hi, my name is AN and I am a control freak.

I'm a little bit different though, in the aspect that I take my controlling nature more as a love of being independent.

I do not like relying on anyone for anything because I like things done by ME because I know they'll get done the correct way.

I was recently the MOH for my best friends wedding and I think I did surprisingly well with toning down my controlling nature.

One things I'm REALLY big about is driving. I DO NOT like ANYONE except myself and one other person to drive. Hate it. Terrifies the crap out of me and I always feel like I'm about to vomit all over. It's definitely a control thing. I don't like knowing someone else has control of the car while I helplessly sit in the passengers side. I even notice myself pressing the imaginary "breaks" when I'm in the passenger seat. And I ALWAYS look with the person when they're reversing/turning/anything. I also always feel the need to remind them that the light has turned RED, just in case they don't see it. My husband absolutely can't stand this but I always say its better to have 4 eyes than 2

Also, I find my controlling personality as a source of determination and motivation.

I think as I've gotten older, I have learned to tone it down A LOT. I used to be really bad and and it was a total turn off in terms of personality.

I am this way with driving. I even impose designated routes upon people because they feel better/safer to me. I drive the same routes everywhere, whether they are efficient or not is not the issue. They are the way I drive, period.

This drives my husband nuts because for a time, he was in motor transport in the Marines, which means he was taught to shoot and drive a semi full of marines through mud at the same time. BUT, he wasn't taught how to drive.....lil ole me.