allycat0303
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Hey everyone,
I''ve been sitting on a dilemma for about 1 month now and I can''t make a decision. Last night my guy got really angry and frustrated at me because I haven''t made any progress with wedding plans.
As many of you know my relationship with my sister has been very, very strained for a while with some very scary blow ups, and of course the fact that she upsurped my date for the wedding.
In any case, about a month ago, she and her fiance would not go through with the wedding (in the forseeable future). Although they are still engaged. It was surprising, because she wanted to be married as quickly as possible and had acted badly in the process. Usually I stay out of all business concerning FBIL, because it''s a really nasty subject between us but this time I pushed it because I wanted to know why. She started off by saying that it was because there have been some scary sceen with FBIL (which I''ve known) and that she wasn''t sure they wanted the same things. And I was pressing her for details. And she dropped a bombshell on me.
I feel terrible because all of her friends knew (it was common knowledge to everyone except our family), but she never told me. And we used to be so close. My sister discovered about 1 1/2 years ago that she won''t be able to concieve children. She is beyond devestated. She explained everything to me and it was like a light bulb on everything. Her erratic behavior, why she wanted so badly to get married quickly. She told me that for the past year she has hated me. And I don''t blame her because in retrospect I''ve said things that in her situation would have been insane. For example we would talk about children, and I would tell her how I didn''t want any, that being a mother wasn''t important to me. In retrospect I am deeply ashamed because being in her position....I don''t even know how I would react. She also told me that she didn''t feel like she could tell me because she didn''t think I would be able to relate to her pain at all, because I''m so anti-children. I don''t know what to do for her, or what to say. She loves children. She is very, very family and motherhood oriented. It''s one of her strongest qualites and I''ve always wished i had that quality. She has told me repeatedly that the worst thing that could happen to her is if she didn''t have children. She is in couple''s conselling with her fiance, and she''s joined an online and community support group. And for the first time, I feel that they are making the right step. My sister apologized for the things that have been done in the past, and she also told me it would make her really happy if I would get married on the original date I had planned because she wants to set things right.
So now I''m not sure what to do and where to do it.
Italy pros:
a) I can''t seem to muster up a stitch of enthusiam for all of the issues that are going to come with getting married here. My parents are going to make all sorts of demands for what is deemed *proper*. The whole Vietnamese community scrutinizing my figure trying to discern whether or not I''m *pregenent* and HAVE to get married.
b) I was set on a wedding in Italy. For many reasons, including the fact that I am deadly afraid of any more drama or ugly scenes.
c) I''m also hurt that my parents (who are still not aware of the true nature of my sister''s problem) sided with her and her fiance. A part of me is deeply hurt that with the knowledge they had, I was considered less important then my sister. They were willing to disown me if I didn''t give in to their wishes and regardless of how blasé I''ve seemed about it, that really, really hurt. However, I know I''m being a baby, holding onto this.
d) My guy has also put a deposit on the villa, so we''d also lose that.
e) And I have serious reservations about having this wedding in Quebec. I don''t want my sister to feel bad in any way shape or form. Although she insists on it, I can''t help feeling like it would be wrong, because I know that what she is going through must be like a death. If I got married in Italy (eloped) she wouldn''t have to go if she didn''t want to. It feels like it would be insensitive to have my wedding when she''ll be thinking she was supposed to get married (and yes, it was originally my wedding date, but considering what she has been through, I definitely do not hold it against her.)
Italy cons:
a) Then there''s my FMIL. She and I are very, very, very close. She is a doll. She REALLY doesn''t want me to get married in Italy. She wants me to have a wedding here, so that all her family could attend. She even offered to pay for her guests at the reception. Now we were 100% set on paying for the wedding ourselves. For many reasons
- we don''t need the money
- I don''t want money conflicts. I hate them, and since the finances aren''t an issue I want to be spared the headache
- I hate feeling obligated to do anything.
I *suspect* she is offerring because she can then feel less guilty of putting some pressure on me to have the wedding in Quebec. But regardless of whether or not I''m having the wedding in Quebec or Italy, I am DEFINITELY NOT going to accept financial help. So is it rude to turn down a financial contribution by the parents? And how to word it?
b) And then there''s my guy. He *says* anywhere is fine. But my gut feeling is that he wants to have a traditional wedding with his family. He''s never said it, but I feel that this is what it wants.
For some reason, the solution is really not evident to me. So, where should I have this wedding? And how do I tell his parents we don''t want a financial contribution. My guy is ready to throttle me. I have a 4 week space next year to get married and if I don''t book, then there won''t be a wedding next year.
Thanks ladies! (sorry for the novel) I just wanted to make sure it''s the whole story. My friends are all in Europe for the summer, so I haven''t gotten any solid advice.
I''ve been sitting on a dilemma for about 1 month now and I can''t make a decision. Last night my guy got really angry and frustrated at me because I haven''t made any progress with wedding plans.
As many of you know my relationship with my sister has been very, very strained for a while with some very scary blow ups, and of course the fact that she upsurped my date for the wedding.
In any case, about a month ago, she and her fiance would not go through with the wedding (in the forseeable future). Although they are still engaged. It was surprising, because she wanted to be married as quickly as possible and had acted badly in the process. Usually I stay out of all business concerning FBIL, because it''s a really nasty subject between us but this time I pushed it because I wanted to know why. She started off by saying that it was because there have been some scary sceen with FBIL (which I''ve known) and that she wasn''t sure they wanted the same things. And I was pressing her for details. And she dropped a bombshell on me.
I feel terrible because all of her friends knew (it was common knowledge to everyone except our family), but she never told me. And we used to be so close. My sister discovered about 1 1/2 years ago that she won''t be able to concieve children. She is beyond devestated. She explained everything to me and it was like a light bulb on everything. Her erratic behavior, why she wanted so badly to get married quickly. She told me that for the past year she has hated me. And I don''t blame her because in retrospect I''ve said things that in her situation would have been insane. For example we would talk about children, and I would tell her how I didn''t want any, that being a mother wasn''t important to me. In retrospect I am deeply ashamed because being in her position....I don''t even know how I would react. She also told me that she didn''t feel like she could tell me because she didn''t think I would be able to relate to her pain at all, because I''m so anti-children. I don''t know what to do for her, or what to say. She loves children. She is very, very family and motherhood oriented. It''s one of her strongest qualites and I''ve always wished i had that quality. She has told me repeatedly that the worst thing that could happen to her is if she didn''t have children. She is in couple''s conselling with her fiance, and she''s joined an online and community support group. And for the first time, I feel that they are making the right step. My sister apologized for the things that have been done in the past, and she also told me it would make her really happy if I would get married on the original date I had planned because she wants to set things right.
So now I''m not sure what to do and where to do it.
Italy pros:
a) I can''t seem to muster up a stitch of enthusiam for all of the issues that are going to come with getting married here. My parents are going to make all sorts of demands for what is deemed *proper*. The whole Vietnamese community scrutinizing my figure trying to discern whether or not I''m *pregenent* and HAVE to get married.
b) I was set on a wedding in Italy. For many reasons, including the fact that I am deadly afraid of any more drama or ugly scenes.
c) I''m also hurt that my parents (who are still not aware of the true nature of my sister''s problem) sided with her and her fiance. A part of me is deeply hurt that with the knowledge they had, I was considered less important then my sister. They were willing to disown me if I didn''t give in to their wishes and regardless of how blasé I''ve seemed about it, that really, really hurt. However, I know I''m being a baby, holding onto this.
d) My guy has also put a deposit on the villa, so we''d also lose that.
e) And I have serious reservations about having this wedding in Quebec. I don''t want my sister to feel bad in any way shape or form. Although she insists on it, I can''t help feeling like it would be wrong, because I know that what she is going through must be like a death. If I got married in Italy (eloped) she wouldn''t have to go if she didn''t want to. It feels like it would be insensitive to have my wedding when she''ll be thinking she was supposed to get married (and yes, it was originally my wedding date, but considering what she has been through, I definitely do not hold it against her.)
Italy cons:
a) Then there''s my FMIL. She and I are very, very, very close. She is a doll. She REALLY doesn''t want me to get married in Italy. She wants me to have a wedding here, so that all her family could attend. She even offered to pay for her guests at the reception. Now we were 100% set on paying for the wedding ourselves. For many reasons
- we don''t need the money
- I don''t want money conflicts. I hate them, and since the finances aren''t an issue I want to be spared the headache
- I hate feeling obligated to do anything.
I *suspect* she is offerring because she can then feel less guilty of putting some pressure on me to have the wedding in Quebec. But regardless of whether or not I''m having the wedding in Quebec or Italy, I am DEFINITELY NOT going to accept financial help. So is it rude to turn down a financial contribution by the parents? And how to word it?
b) And then there''s my guy. He *says* anywhere is fine. But my gut feeling is that he wants to have a traditional wedding with his family. He''s never said it, but I feel that this is what it wants.
For some reason, the solution is really not evident to me. So, where should I have this wedding? And how do I tell his parents we don''t want a financial contribution. My guy is ready to throttle me. I have a 4 week space next year to get married and if I don''t book, then there won''t be a wedding next year.
Thanks ladies! (sorry for the novel) I just wanted to make sure it''s the whole story. My friends are all in Europe for the summer, so I haven''t gotten any solid advice.