Prayers PLEASE

[isaku5]

I too would like to add my prayers to those of the other responders.

 

[Autumnovember]

I was talking to him on the phone tonight about directions how to get to the hospital...

He told me to do something on the computer and I told him I didn''t know how,

I don''t think he meant to but he said: I''ll teach you when I get home...if I even make it


All I could blurt out was "WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT??"

He acted like he had no clue what I was talking about and said

"What did I say? I said I''d teach you when I got home"

I knew what he said. I felt the lump in my throat and as soon as we hung up...I completely burst into tears. I wish he never said that. My dad has never shown me that he was afraid of ANYTHING, EVER, IN ALL MY 22 YEARS!!


I don''t know how to make it clear to him that I''ll do whatever it takes in the world to fight with him. He almost doesn''t even want to hear that or anything I want to say like "I love you dad" or "dad you''re the best and I''m here for you like I always have been".

I want to hug him so bad.

He just wants me to act normal. Like everything is fine. He wants me to treat him like I always do.

I''m trying so hard not to act overly emotional or even slightly different then I normally do but its so difficult when all I feel like doing is sobbing on his shoulder.

 

[lizzyann]

Much love to you and your father. You both will be in my prayers.

 

[Autumnovember]

Thank you lizzyann

 

[susimoo]

I am so sorry. Like I said, we are going to be here with you every step of the way. Try and stay positive. My prayers and best wishes go out to you and yours.

 

[missydebby]

Hugs and love... deep breathes

 

[swingirl]

I''m sorry you are going through this. My thoughts are with you, your dad and your family.

 

[junebug17]

Oh sweetie, I am so very sorry...I will be keeping you and your dad in my thoughts and prayers. It is hard to go through this at any age, but my heart goes out to you because you are so young to be experiencing something like this. Please try to stay as positive as you can, and many, many hugs to you.

 

[Autumnovember]

Thank you all for the support.

They started the chemo today...and I went to go see him in DC. So far, he seems to feel fine.

He opened up to me more then he ever did in my whole life. I think finally being able to talk to me about the fact that he has cancer (I knew all along, but he thought the whole time my sister and I had no idea because he made my mom promise him not to tell us). I reminded him about how much I love him and how I'm going to fight this with him and that we would get through this. I told him how strong of a person he was and that he would beat this and recover. I told him not to be scared.

I hugged him and kissed him. He's protected me my entire life...and now, I feel like I need to protect him with all the love/support/positivity I can give.

Thank you all again for the continuing prayers. He'll be needing them for some time to come.

I'm back home now and I can't wait to see him on Sunday. I already gave him my fathers day card/gift. It made him smile

 

[princesss]

Lots of prayers for you and your family, hun.

 

[loriken214]

Many prayers for comfort and healing to you and your dad and entire family.

Lori

 

[marcy]

Autumnovember, I am glad he is doing fine with the start of chemo. How nice your father day gift made him smile.

 

[oddoneout]

This is so sad. I am glad your family are close and can support each other. I wish you and your family the best through this difficult time.