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feeling guilty, selfish, sad

nararabbit

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I haven't been around in a while, just working a lot and my husband has been extremely sick (3 weeks in Cedars, he is home and okay now.) Life has been a bit of a rollercoaster and perhaps that is why I am feeling more emotional than is like me.

Essentially, the story is this... DH's aunt has no children, and inherited a STUNNING 4 carat diamond ring via her engagement many years ago. I don't even have a picture, but I've seen it on her hand at many occasions, including our wedding, engagement party (which she hosted). She has always told me that when she passes away, hopefully a LONG time away, she will leave it to me as I am the only other diamond lover in the family. Wow. She also is kind of eccentric and eschews sending her family birthday cards and doesn't return their phone calls, yet we email and phone each other weekly and she remembers ALL our occasions. I just adore her.

Anyway, I hadn't heard from her for a while, when she called me up out of the blue to tell me that since her husband passed away last year, she felt the need to make a fresh start. They had agreed to leave their house to his children, since she didn't need so much space, and she was renting a place of her own. She started to tear up, and told me she had sold the diamond for a down payment on a small home of her own.

Oh my gosh, that was not what I was expecting. I feel horrible. I am so, so happy that she's got a place of her own, I love her dearly and want her to be happy. But deep down, the childish part of me is really upset about the diamond. I know it's wrong! It's just a thing! But I've seen it so many times, she had me try it on and we talked about resetting it (as the prongs were getting all sh***y, and she wanted to reset it in a style we'd both like to save my having to redo it someday.)

In other words, it's not like I thought about it all day and night, because I knew it was a long ways off. But now that I know it's gone, I'm so disappointed and sad.

I know I'll get over it when I'm helping her decorate her new place. It really is the best thing. I just needed to vent and be sad in a place where others would understand - as there is no way my family would, and it would be extremely rude of me to mention it at all!
 
good vent, nara.
you are so right: its a thing.
your heart is so in the right place!
not only do you understand her situation, you support her having a place of her own.
AND you're going to help decorate it!
disappointed?
probably......
but i think you're already getting over it.
you are indeed a good person :appl:

ps
my experience has been to not make plans or even dream of plans for something until its in my possession.....another one of my life learning lessons....geez, why are there so many?!
 
I think it's perfectly natural to feel like you do. You were promised something, something quite beautifully astounding, that you were looking forward to getting someday, and now you are not getting it. That part sucks!

It sounds like are already coming to terms with it. Your aunt sounds like a beautiful person, and tried to do what would be best for both her husband's children and for herself. I don't think it says anything about your relationship with her, and hopefully you will be able to move on from that.
 
It would probably be easier, but all the money I saved towards my own ring (an asscher or pear) just went to purchase a car in January. I love my car, I love that I saved the money and paid for it up front and have payment (Prius) and the gas mileage is great. But I still mentally spend that money in my mind on a great deco asscher, not a car. :lol: Now I am back to square one, saving for it, kinda wondering if it'll EVER happen. (Old car needed extensive, EXPENSIVE repairs.)


And maybe it doesn't. I really don't know why it matters to me even. Normally I am not focused on material things at all. Maybe that is what's bothering me... :?
 
You don't seem like a selfish person! It's only natural part of you is disappointed.

You have a relative you adore and a new car! My car died, I have to save more to get a reliable used car, and do without one for awhile. If I were you (and I'm being serious) I would go for a drive to relieve the stress!

Please don't beat youself up over this! I'm impressed by your post. You are right. Things are things. It is our well being and loved ones that truly matter. You'll have a beautiful diamond one day! You deserve to IMO because you have a good perspective and good values. Hugs!
 
I don't think that because you feel that way you are selfish. The way you handled the new was very gracious even though you were disappointed. That says something. I'm sure there are people out there who would have thrown a fit or a guilt tripped your aunt.

You are lucky to have a wonderful aunt and she is VERY lucky to have you.
 
Anyone would be disappointed in that situation. All those feelings are normal. You handled it well and you are being wonderful to your husband's aunt. That shows your character the most...you care about HER and she obviously loves you, too!
 
It's only natural to feel disappointed-do not feel guilty, selfish, or sad! You're only human, and it sounds like you are being very kind to your aunt. You'll get a dream stone of your own one day, I just know it. Hugs to you and I'm glad your husband is feeling better.
 
Sorry to hear about your husband. I'd have a pang of disappointment too, but that will pass. Don't be too hard on yourself; you've been a great friend to this lovely woman.
 
I'd probably feel a pang of disappointment too, but hey, you realize this is the best thing for her, that's obvious.
You should be really proud of yourself for paying cash for a new car.
 
especially a Prius!
 
movie zombie|1346978366|3263474 said:
especially a Prius!

This is actually the third Prius for my husband (he had an EV1, then a Prius 1st Gen) and I (2010), and my in-laws have two as well! They are such hardy, long-wearing cars! The car I traded in was a Volvo that needed work - I wanted a low maintenance car, so another Prius it was! ;^) The only reason we've replaced them was to get new doo-dads like GPS and the like. The old ones are still running strong for their new owners too.

Though if the Venza was a hybrid even close in MPG to the Prius, that would've been it. Maybe in 2020. LOL!
 
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