b.anna
Shiny_Rock
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- May 4, 2009
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hi all - just as an update (not sure how many ppl were keeping track of my previous thread), i''ve decided to move out. things are pretty much at a stalemate now, and even though we keep talking, it''s not going anywhere. neither of us are happy and i can''t help but think that he is hoping i will just get over this and forget about the whole thing. that is definitely not happening.
i''ve talked to friends and family, and everyone who has contributed to this thread have given me some amazing advice. you are all absolutely right - i will never be able to change him. i don''t feel ok with just settling and i know if i go back to school next year, things will only get worse between us.
i have been feeling really divided these past weeks. i feel selfish in so many ways because i know it will hurt him when i love him with all my heart. but at the same time, it just isn''t worth it for either of us to be in a relationship that is not completely fulfilling.
at this point i don''t even know how to tell friends and family. we had an engagement party and now i will get to send out thank you notes saying something along the lines of "thanks for coming, but...." big sigh. not to mention moving and changing my address which is a huge headache and dealing with the awkwardness of this whole mess.
i know relationships are hard, but i know that it should not be this hard. and i refuse to fight for something that just feels unnatural now. i really felt like my year off of school was going to be smooth sailing but now there are lots of things up in the air.
gah! i guess it was better to realize all this stuff before being married and/or in school again. thanks for all the advice here ladies, i would be so much worse off if it weren''t for your advice
