My DH have just spent hours discussing this backwards and forward (with lots of tears my end). I have the urge for a second child, but I had a rare medical condition that meant possible death for myself or child, or permament health issues, lvery uckily neither happend, but the chance of it happening again with the next one are there, and cannot be negated. If it happens it happens, if it doesnt it doeesnt.
So, after me hoarding all my sons old clothes for years, and crying with each friends child, and numerous discussions about it with my husband, who doesnt want to risk losing me or face the prospect of an ill mother or ill child, I am at a place were I am getting ready to give all his old things away and to stop hoarding for the just in case a miracle happens second baby. the pain is so great, but practical logic and feelings dont always go together. I want one so badly, but I am lucky to be so blessed with a healthy happy son, and I need to be content with that.
Dont know the point of this post, other than to put into words that I am beginning to acknoledge that it aint going to happen and that it is time to clear out those overflowing cuboards and focus on the family I have. If only the maternal instinct wasnt so strong...... its strange that a diamond forum should be where I feel able to express these thoughts, it is such a lovlely community, I guess it is time I faced reality and dried my tears and focused on now, not what might have been.
d2b
So, after me hoarding all my sons old clothes for years, and crying with each friends child, and numerous discussions about it with my husband, who doesnt want to risk losing me or face the prospect of an ill mother or ill child, I am at a place were I am getting ready to give all his old things away and to stop hoarding for the just in case a miracle happens second baby. the pain is so great, but practical logic and feelings dont always go together. I want one so badly, but I am lucky to be so blessed with a healthy happy son, and I need to be content with that.
Dont know the point of this post, other than to put into words that I am beginning to acknoledge that it aint going to happen and that it is time to clear out those overflowing cuboards and focus on the family I have. If only the maternal instinct wasnt so strong...... its strange that a diamond forum should be where I feel able to express these thoughts, it is such a lovlely community, I guess it is time I faced reality and dried my tears and focused on now, not what might have been.
d2b