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I've always been an introverted person and have always disliked big groups and parties...and for the most part I also disliked birthday parties, etc. I went, I did what I needed to do, but was always kind of counting down the time to when I could leave or be alone.
(BTW if you didn't know this about me, you'd never guess it...I am talkative, lively, etc.)
But as I get older it is getting more and more that even situations that once felt comfortable now give me anxiety, or I just want to do them even less than I did before. My parents are throwing a party to celebrate that they came into some money (and as some of you know I have some issues going on with that) and my father's birthday from a few weeks ago - and I just don't want to go to this party. I have mixed feelings about them throwing it in the first place but it's more than that...it's like I just don't feel comfortable anywhere - I just dread going. And DH is working and can't go so that doesn't help. It's going to be all of their friends and I just don't want to go But not going isn't an option, I feel like I've said "no" to a lot of invitations lately and perhaps also I'm afraid my parents will be embarrassed/hurt if I don't go.
Once I get there it is often - maybe most times - OK...but I am starting to feel like if I had rock-solid excuses I'd be turning down every single invitation lately.
I know this is probably so foreign to most of you. I am often so awed by people who feel comfortable with people Does anybody else go through this kind of thing? Even family gatherings lately don't feel "easy" like they used to.
(BTW if you didn't know this about me, you'd never guess it...I am talkative, lively, etc.)
But as I get older it is getting more and more that even situations that once felt comfortable now give me anxiety, or I just want to do them even less than I did before. My parents are throwing a party to celebrate that they came into some money (and as some of you know I have some issues going on with that) and my father's birthday from a few weeks ago - and I just don't want to go to this party. I have mixed feelings about them throwing it in the first place but it's more than that...it's like I just don't feel comfortable anywhere - I just dread going. And DH is working and can't go so that doesn't help. It's going to be all of their friends and I just don't want to go But not going isn't an option, I feel like I've said "no" to a lot of invitations lately and perhaps also I'm afraid my parents will be embarrassed/hurt if I don't go.
Once I get there it is often - maybe most times - OK...but I am starting to feel like if I had rock-solid excuses I'd be turning down every single invitation lately.
I know this is probably so foreign to most of you. I am often so awed by people who feel comfortable with people Does anybody else go through this kind of thing? Even family gatherings lately don't feel "easy" like they used to.