gigglesmagoo
Rough_Rock
- Joined
- May 8, 2009
- Messages
- 1
Hey all! I recently found this site and have been fascinated with it ever since! You all are very supportive and nice and with my current situation I think I need an outsiders perspective. I won''t get into it in full detail because that would take an eternity for all of us here but here it goes.
I have been dating my bf for a little over 7 yrs. Im almost 25 and hes 28. We''ve def had our ups and downs but what couple hasnt. I really feel that we have grown and matured so much over the yrs and the problems we have had are because of our lack of maturity. We of course still have some growing to do though. That being said we have had a long distance relationship for a lot of the time. He joined the military,went to school and after he graduated almost a yr later still couldnt find a job. We lived together for about 6 months the whole time I was supporting us. He paid for his bills but everything else was all me. Which I didnt mind at all because I was happy to FINALLY have a normal relationship with him. I could see him everyday without driving 4hrs or taking off work every other weekend. Although I was estatic to have him to wake up to everyday I didn''t want to see that he was miserable. Not because he was with me but because he wasn''t contributing and viewed himself as a bum and felt worthless. Well about 3 months ago he got an offer to work in iraq as a contractor. I of course didn''t want to hear any of it because I was so sick of being away from him and couldnt stand the fact that he was even considering leaving me again. Well he took the job and needless to say I was crushed and selfishly couldnt understand why he needed to leave. It was rough for us for a few weeks and we talked about everything and decided to stay together while he was gone. He didnt want to break up but my thoughts were "how long do I have to wait for you?" I know its terrible but I couldnt help but feel that way considering I have supported him doing what he wanted for so many yrs. Just this once I wanted him to stay for me. Meanwhile I wasnt looking at the bigger picture that he would have money when he came back to put down on a house for us. Ok so he is over there for a yr and he gets to take leave for almost a month. We decided that he would come back in Aug so he could be here for my birthday and that we would take a vacation together. Just us. We''ve gone on quite a few together but always with other couples or friends. He also said that he was going to pay for this one (I really didnt want this because I dont like people spending money on me) but he insisted because I took him to the dominican for his graduation/bday present last summer. So I agreed and went along that he wanted everything to be a surprise. Awesome I get a wonderful surprise paid vaca with the guy I love! What could be better than that? Or so I thought.
For the past month my best friend has been acting somewhat strangely and bringing up rings,what I like etc. She just got engaged and knows absolutely nothing when it comes to diamonds (she didnt know that hers was a princess cut until I told her) Anyways I always thought that he would go to her if he ever decided to propose. Just a feeling I had and it turns out I was right. Well a couple of weeks ago our mutual friend got drunk and pretty much told me without telling me and also said that my best friend was finding out information for my bf on what I want. I was a little upset that I knew but quickly got over it and started "helping" my best friend tell him exactly what I want. Well I guess she caught on and told my bf that I might be checking his emails and that he should delete everything they talk about. 1. I hadnt checked his emails 2. Why on earth would she tell him that? So he of course gets mad thinking Ive been snooping and accuses me of checking his emails. We get into an arguement (online for gods sake!) Well she ends up calling me right after our fight and Im crying the whole time she asks "well why would he think you were checking his emails" then quickly changes the subject and gets off the phone. After calming down I put 2 and 2 together and realized that she was the only person that could have told him. Well the next day we are online talking and I wanted him to admit that she had told him. He told me some bs as to why he thought that I was which made me extremely angry that he was sticking up for her. So we got into another fight because he wouldnt tell me. He just kept saying if ''I tell you why I thought that then Id have to tell you the entire thing that I was planning." I told him that I didnt want to know anything about the vacation just that she told him I was checking his emails. He wouldnt and then said that he was just going to ruin it and tell me everything. I didnt want that to happen so I signed offline. My best friend called me and asked if I was going dress shopping with her (which was my idea because they are getting married in less than a yr and she hasnt done anything yet) I of course am furious with her and yell at her for telling him and tell her that Im not going with her now. She explained as much as she could to why she did it and got off the phone. I decided to be the bigger person and still go to help her pick out her wedding dress. Well when I get home I sign online and he had decided to tell me EVERYTHING! I mean everything about his plan to ask me to marry him and how she was helping him get the perfect e-ring. And that now its ruinned and its all because of me. He said "its a good thing I hadnt bought the ring or the vaca yet or Id be out 12k" I know that I should have left well enough alone but I just cant get over the fact that he told me. Why oh why did he do that? I signed off so he wouldnt tell me and he still did. So now its off the whole thing is no longer going to happen. Not even the vacation I was looking forward to. Oh and whats even worse is he hasnt talked to me in 5 days now. I cant help but somewhat feel like he started to have mixed feelings about the whole thing and saw telling me as a way out for him. My thoughts are you either want to marry me or you dont and yes your perfect plan is ruinned but its not like I left you at the altar or something. We can get past this but not if you dont talk to me.
I just dont know what to do right now. Im completely devastated by the whole thing. Any thoughts would be greatly appreciated.
P.S. Im sorry this was so long I even put at the beginning that I wouldnt go into detail. oops hehe
I have been dating my bf for a little over 7 yrs. Im almost 25 and hes 28. We''ve def had our ups and downs but what couple hasnt. I really feel that we have grown and matured so much over the yrs and the problems we have had are because of our lack of maturity. We of course still have some growing to do though. That being said we have had a long distance relationship for a lot of the time. He joined the military,went to school and after he graduated almost a yr later still couldnt find a job. We lived together for about 6 months the whole time I was supporting us. He paid for his bills but everything else was all me. Which I didnt mind at all because I was happy to FINALLY have a normal relationship with him. I could see him everyday without driving 4hrs or taking off work every other weekend. Although I was estatic to have him to wake up to everyday I didn''t want to see that he was miserable. Not because he was with me but because he wasn''t contributing and viewed himself as a bum and felt worthless. Well about 3 months ago he got an offer to work in iraq as a contractor. I of course didn''t want to hear any of it because I was so sick of being away from him and couldnt stand the fact that he was even considering leaving me again. Well he took the job and needless to say I was crushed and selfishly couldnt understand why he needed to leave. It was rough for us for a few weeks and we talked about everything and decided to stay together while he was gone. He didnt want to break up but my thoughts were "how long do I have to wait for you?" I know its terrible but I couldnt help but feel that way considering I have supported him doing what he wanted for so many yrs. Just this once I wanted him to stay for me. Meanwhile I wasnt looking at the bigger picture that he would have money when he came back to put down on a house for us. Ok so he is over there for a yr and he gets to take leave for almost a month. We decided that he would come back in Aug so he could be here for my birthday and that we would take a vacation together. Just us. We''ve gone on quite a few together but always with other couples or friends. He also said that he was going to pay for this one (I really didnt want this because I dont like people spending money on me) but he insisted because I took him to the dominican for his graduation/bday present last summer. So I agreed and went along that he wanted everything to be a surprise. Awesome I get a wonderful surprise paid vaca with the guy I love! What could be better than that? Or so I thought.
For the past month my best friend has been acting somewhat strangely and bringing up rings,what I like etc. She just got engaged and knows absolutely nothing when it comes to diamonds (she didnt know that hers was a princess cut until I told her) Anyways I always thought that he would go to her if he ever decided to propose. Just a feeling I had and it turns out I was right. Well a couple of weeks ago our mutual friend got drunk and pretty much told me without telling me and also said that my best friend was finding out information for my bf on what I want. I was a little upset that I knew but quickly got over it and started "helping" my best friend tell him exactly what I want. Well I guess she caught on and told my bf that I might be checking his emails and that he should delete everything they talk about. 1. I hadnt checked his emails 2. Why on earth would she tell him that? So he of course gets mad thinking Ive been snooping and accuses me of checking his emails. We get into an arguement (online for gods sake!) Well she ends up calling me right after our fight and Im crying the whole time she asks "well why would he think you were checking his emails" then quickly changes the subject and gets off the phone. After calming down I put 2 and 2 together and realized that she was the only person that could have told him. Well the next day we are online talking and I wanted him to admit that she had told him. He told me some bs as to why he thought that I was which made me extremely angry that he was sticking up for her. So we got into another fight because he wouldnt tell me. He just kept saying if ''I tell you why I thought that then Id have to tell you the entire thing that I was planning." I told him that I didnt want to know anything about the vacation just that she told him I was checking his emails. He wouldnt and then said that he was just going to ruin it and tell me everything. I didnt want that to happen so I signed offline. My best friend called me and asked if I was going dress shopping with her (which was my idea because they are getting married in less than a yr and she hasnt done anything yet) I of course am furious with her and yell at her for telling him and tell her that Im not going with her now. She explained as much as she could to why she did it and got off the phone. I decided to be the bigger person and still go to help her pick out her wedding dress. Well when I get home I sign online and he had decided to tell me EVERYTHING! I mean everything about his plan to ask me to marry him and how she was helping him get the perfect e-ring. And that now its ruinned and its all because of me. He said "its a good thing I hadnt bought the ring or the vaca yet or Id be out 12k" I know that I should have left well enough alone but I just cant get over the fact that he told me. Why oh why did he do that? I signed off so he wouldnt tell me and he still did. So now its off the whole thing is no longer going to happen. Not even the vacation I was looking forward to. Oh and whats even worse is he hasnt talked to me in 5 days now. I cant help but somewhat feel like he started to have mixed feelings about the whole thing and saw telling me as a way out for him. My thoughts are you either want to marry me or you dont and yes your perfect plan is ruinned but its not like I left you at the altar or something. We can get past this but not if you dont talk to me.
I just dont know what to do right now. Im completely devastated by the whole thing. Any thoughts would be greatly appreciated.
P.S. Im sorry this was so long I even put at the beginning that I wouldnt go into detail. oops hehe