misscuppycake
Shiny_Rock
- Joined
- Jan 10, 2008
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- 164
Sigh, I think I'm officially going crazy. I really need to vent and I figured there would be no better place to discuss this than with fellow LIWs.
I want to start by saying that I am indeed an LIW but I'm fully prepared to wait a while for an engagement (a year, maybe even more). Normally, when close friends and acquaintances get engaged, I am happy for them. I was thrilled for my sister, I am excitedly waiting for my best friend to get hitched, etc.
However, there is this one particular girl in my life that I've had many issues with. We are, what you might call, "frenemies". She's tons of fun, plans lots of outings for our circle of friends, and she is truly an interesting person to converse with. However, she can also be condescending, bossy, and plain mean on occasion (and not just to me). She has somehow been deemed the "leader" of the group and somehow believes she has the upper hand in every situation, but as I said, she can be kind and is a very interesting person.
Anyway, I have never been jealous of anyone else getting engaged. Engagements for me have always been a reason to be even more excited about my own one day. That being said, I knew deep down inside that if this girl ever got engaged first, I would not be able to handle it. She just doesn't treat people very well and sometimes I feel like she gets more than she deserves. I know this is SO mean and probably unfair but I can't help it.
So last night, we all got the news. They're engaged. I didn't see it coming at ALL. I thought for sure it wouldn't be for a few more years and I was literally blindsided. I had to leave the room and call my best friend in tears. I think it was partially the overwhelming shock because I wasn't expecting it (and I am already feeling slightly better today), but I just feel like I have a lot on my emotional plate. I obviously can't go around telling people I feel this way when I'm supposed to be her friend, but I just feel like I've been punched in the gut.
Thank you SO much for listening to this vent.
I want to start by saying that I am indeed an LIW but I'm fully prepared to wait a while for an engagement (a year, maybe even more). Normally, when close friends and acquaintances get engaged, I am happy for them. I was thrilled for my sister, I am excitedly waiting for my best friend to get hitched, etc.
However, there is this one particular girl in my life that I've had many issues with. We are, what you might call, "frenemies". She's tons of fun, plans lots of outings for our circle of friends, and she is truly an interesting person to converse with. However, she can also be condescending, bossy, and plain mean on occasion (and not just to me). She has somehow been deemed the "leader" of the group and somehow believes she has the upper hand in every situation, but as I said, she can be kind and is a very interesting person.
Anyway, I have never been jealous of anyone else getting engaged. Engagements for me have always been a reason to be even more excited about my own one day. That being said, I knew deep down inside that if this girl ever got engaged first, I would not be able to handle it. She just doesn't treat people very well and sometimes I feel like she gets more than she deserves. I know this is SO mean and probably unfair but I can't help it.
So last night, we all got the news. They're engaged. I didn't see it coming at ALL. I thought for sure it wouldn't be for a few more years and I was literally blindsided. I had to leave the room and call my best friend in tears. I think it was partially the overwhelming shock because I wasn't expecting it (and I am already feeling slightly better today), but I just feel like I have a lot on my emotional plate. I obviously can't go around telling people I feel this way when I'm supposed to be her friend, but I just feel like I've been punched in the gut.
Thank you SO much for listening to this vent.