I am so stupid - I have done it again, getting my hopes up just to be devastated again, I should no better. We are on holidays, perfect for a proposal, staying with my parents so the question can be asked. But we were talking last night and he said something to make me realise that it''s not happening now. And, now of course, I am miserable. Should have known better than to get my hopes up. Oh well, I am making an effort to get over it and enjoy my holiday with the best man in the world and my great parents. My Mum''s endless supply of cocktails is helping!! Sorry, had to vent!