So, as many of you know I'm one of the babies on PS (24). I lurk a lot more than I post because I'm busy finishing up my final semester of a grueling accelerated BSN program (degree number two).
Anyways, I've been thinking A LOT lately. About a lot of things.
I've been in school for every consecutive month since I have been 17 and never really had a REAL job.
To be honest, I'm scared. Really, really, scared. Maybe of the unknown above all.
I have no idea what it's like to pay bills and to be a responsible adult and to work 40+ hours a week at a job thats rewarding but also very difficult emotionally and physically.
It doesn't help that my husband works a demanding job and all of my closest friends are in the medical field and come home from work on many days exhausted and hating life.
I'm afraid of hating my job and being unhappy and while my future job has endless possibilities....it's still...scary.
I don't really know where I'm going with this but I guess I would just like advice of any kind. Advice on how to adjust, maybe.
It also doesn't help that I feel like even though nurses are very much in demand in many area's - they're not in mine, ESPECIALLY new graduate RN's. I feel like I'll never find a job and thats really stressing me out. I know I'll probably have to work in an area that I don't like the first year and suck it up but I don't even know what it's like to dedicate weekends to work!
I also live in 3 different places and I still have no clue where my job will be! It's a million things.
I've finally come to the point where I'm nervous about growing up.
A big reason (and perhaps not the right one) that I went into this field is because I want my husband to work less and to also be able to help out my parents as much as I can and I think that pressure and stress is getting to me too.
Not only that but I know in a year, I'll be back in school to become a nurse practitioner (for the same reason as above).
Advice, experiences, and over-all support is probably what I need most right now. I know that I can home here at any time to get that.
P.S. I think it's important to point out that I absolutely do not want children at all for another 3+ years so the focus right now is on me, my husband, and my family.
P.P.S. I have NO idea what kind of nursing I want to get into and I'm hoping it reveals itself to me in the future. I guess I just expected to know and get an idea from nursing school and the rotations I have done but nothing stood out to me. Not even what I originally thought would be the perfect fit for me!