HollyS
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ksinger|1354815461|3324483 said:Well, I'm not in the mood. And you know what? I blame YOU! Yes YOU! I blame ALL Y'ALL for my holiday mood. Espcecially Kenny.
Seriously, lot's of reasons. I no longer like to shop. I'm tired and my house is really too small to decorate without having to put half of it AWAY to get room for decorations. Most of my family is dead or gone from here. It looks like Oklahoma - which is experiencing drought that puts the dustbowl rainfall levels to shame - isn't going to get anything resembling winter AGAIN this year: it's bloody hot for December. I really haven't been able to even get out a sweater. My husband's job is killing him and HE isn't a Christmas guy, and I find the whole thing just a bit depressing.
I used to enjoy this time of year, but situations and people change, and I don't see any reason to force a cheerfulness I simply don't feel. I read once that it was odd that in western culture, we pressure, if not insist, that people be OUT there and being frantically family and party and gift-y and decorate-y, when the natural world (and probably our own rhythms) make it the quietest, most introspective and inward time of the year. I think I'm going to go with the flow and not fight the power-down.
I understand the feeling. I do. That's why I try to keep my Christmas as quiet and stress free as possible.
Yes, I decorate. But I don't over-decorate. The whole house is not a holiday showcase.
Yes, I bake. But that's to feel close to my Mom, who passed in 2003. The recipes are hers. And cookies make great gifts.
Yes, I listen to the music. But it's quiet and simple. Until the week of Christmas. Then I'll fa-la-la-la-la along with everyone else.
Yes, I shop. But for two children chosen from our church's Angel Tree. DH and I go all out . . . for them.
I would rather we all either observe religious customs, or family traditions, or cultural traditions as opposed to forced cheer and shopping as a power sport.
I avoid what I don't care for, and embrace what makes Christmas special for me. And, yet, I still feel a bit of dread when the holiday season begins. It has become something to get through, rather than something to anticipate. And, I don't think it has a thing to do with losing our child-like wonder.
I'm gonna blame Martha Stewart.
And Wal-Mart.
There, I said it.