siamese3
Brilliant_Rock
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I am hesitant to post, but I am just feeling like I need to share and I know that there are many animal lovers here. Kiki, a very Siamese cat, with a kinked tail and crossed eyes is dying of lymphoma. He is 13, and has had chronic pancreatitis and ibd for the last four years. It has been a long road for us. Although after the first year, we finally got into a "groove" of sorts and things settled into a new normal. He has always been a "difficult" cat. My DH has always said it's his first life as a cat and he just doesn't know how to relax into it. I haven't left my house overnight but once in those four years (one night to be with my brother.. surgery) because he also suffers from anxiety and doesn't like change, which can then bring on a pancreatitis "flare". He never really made his normal recovery after Christmas this year, and he looked a little thin. It was time for his 6 month check shortly, so he was due for a visit with his lovely Dr. Marla. Turns out he was down 2 lbs and while his blood work was fairly "normal" for him, we decided on an ultrasound to see what was going on. That was two weeks ago. He doesn't tolerate many medication well (he had had reactions to vaccines and many medications that don't normally have adverse effects on other cats) so we have decided to forego any invasive procedure to identify the type of lymphoma and just continue to treat him with prednilisone and cerenia. The good day, bad day is kind of where we are at, yesterday we were planning for the rainbow bridge and last night he decided that he wanted to eat again. So hard. With some pets, knowing when the end is is easy because it is obvious they are suffering. With others, it is harder. Euthanasia is such a gift for them in my opinion, but the decision to end any living creature's life is such an awesomely overwhelming thing. I don't want to get it wrong. I talked with him yesterday and told him he must help me by showing me when he is ready, so it was crazy last night when he decided to show me, tell me, he wanted food. Anyhoo, he is laying here on his heated mat next to me and I am just trying to be present with him in this and send him peace and calm and love vibes. Thanks for listening.