Parsley
Shiny_Rock
- Joined
- Aug 29, 2009
- Messages
- 152
Hi girls
It really pains me to do it but I have to. I need to be taken off the list, and leave PS. Last night H and I came within millimeters of breaking up...at a couple of points I thought we had. I''d forgotten what that pain felt like, wish to god I''d never been reminded. We''ve been going through some really tough times recently, mainly because I have mild depression which has been causing me to act so unlike me. I can''t take a joke and take things to heart too easily. I think I''ve got my head in a dream world and I need to get it out of there as soon as possible, and that has to start with me forgetting the idea of getting married, and concentrate on getting back to myself and working on my relationship. I''ve got to tell you girls, I''ve never been more scared in my life, both last night and now. We seemed to figure it out last night, but I''m still on tenterhooks as to how things are going to pan out over the next few months, I''m so terrified that I''ll try my best and it just won''t be enough to keep him. I love him so much, but he''s close to falling out of love with me.
So, with the heaviest heart imaginable, I''ve got to leave you all. I may be back in the near future to ask you all some questions related to my dissertation, but that''s going to be it. I feel so sad that I won''t get to see all your lovely sparklies as they finally arrive, and all your beautiful wedding pictures when they happen! I love you all, you''ve been such amazing friends, and I wish I could turn to you now but it''s a kinda catch 22 type thing...
The most love and the biggest hugs
Parsley
xxx
It really pains me to do it but I have to. I need to be taken off the list, and leave PS. Last night H and I came within millimeters of breaking up...at a couple of points I thought we had. I''d forgotten what that pain felt like, wish to god I''d never been reminded. We''ve been going through some really tough times recently, mainly because I have mild depression which has been causing me to act so unlike me. I can''t take a joke and take things to heart too easily. I think I''ve got my head in a dream world and I need to get it out of there as soon as possible, and that has to start with me forgetting the idea of getting married, and concentrate on getting back to myself and working on my relationship. I''ve got to tell you girls, I''ve never been more scared in my life, both last night and now. We seemed to figure it out last night, but I''m still on tenterhooks as to how things are going to pan out over the next few months, I''m so terrified that I''ll try my best and it just won''t be enough to keep him. I love him so much, but he''s close to falling out of love with me.
So, with the heaviest heart imaginable, I''ve got to leave you all. I may be back in the near future to ask you all some questions related to my dissertation, but that''s going to be it. I feel so sad that I won''t get to see all your lovely sparklies as they finally arrive, and all your beautiful wedding pictures when they happen! I love you all, you''ve been such amazing friends, and I wish I could turn to you now but it''s a kinda catch 22 type thing...
The most love and the biggest hugs
Parsley
xxx