- Jan 1, 2020
@westofhere There was never a fiancé and there was no engagement, girlfriend, partner, or relationship. That's my point. It's one thing to enjoy shiny things. We all do here! It's another thing entirely to spend $15,000-20,000 on not just a ring, but an engagement ring, when there's no fiancé.
Okay, so much for me not beating a dead horse. Hahaha. Yeesh. But I can't help myself. After reading THIS message I find myself getting angry all over again.
Yes, there was an ex. we spent almost 4 years together--- including blending our families (I could talk about the particular challenges of said "blending" for hours, but that is neither here nor there.... nor is it any of your business, to be perfectly frank). The relationship was so serious that I purchased a $10,000 super ideal engagement ring, in fact. But said relationship ended--- badly and painfully-- and I wound up putting away said engagement ring in the bottom of my dresser drawer. And it sat there for a good long time. I knew that eventually I would upgrade the diamond, of course (because, duh: nobody is going to give a new woman someone else's old engagement ring, plus it was a painful reminder of my time with the ex). I went months and months and months without looking in that drawer. Just tried to put it out of my head for the most part. But eventually I discovered the old ring was gone. Poof! One of my many ill-advised one night stands apparently absconded with it at some point, and I honestly don't know when or which one( to provide further elaboration-- the kind of elaboration and open, full-disclosure that you certainly haven't earned considering your presumptuousness, unsolicited advice, and staggering rudeness), I haven't been remotely ready for anything truly serious over the past few years. Mostly I've been licking my wounds and spinning my wheels. Beyond a few quasi-relationships that were mostly physical in nature (and the aforementioned complicated relationship with a certain lovely and restless married gal) I have mostly concentrated on my time with my son during my appointed weekends and my hectic work schedule. But, yes: I DO daydream about falling in love again. ultimately, I'm a born romantic. It's hot-wired into my DNA, apparently. Even though I've had my testicles dragged over a thousand miles of broken glass (metaphorically speaking ), I still want to believe in the transformative power of romantic love (and I still want to believe in marriage, too, even though the divorce rate is higher than the amount of people who actually stay married). i yearn for that magical alchemy that takes place in a truly committed relationship. I crave that closeness--- the genuine, multi-layered intimacy of two hearts, one soul-- and the indescribable connection of creating something together that is greater than the sum of its parts. And after a long patch of being emotionally guarded I'm finally ready to psychologically prepare myself to get back in the saddle and open myself up to the possibilities of something meaningful.
Anyway, I know I'm kinda all over the place here. Going on and on and on. Haha. Very tired (and also still kind of astonished about several of the presumptuous and ad hominem messages here). But to try to finish what I was saying, once I discovered the old ring had been stolen I filed the claim with my insurance company and replaced it. And during that process all of the old juices that used to get flowing in connection to super ideal cut diamonds kicked in again BIG TIME (as I mentioned, I became completely fascinated with all the particulars during my extensive diamond research when I originally bought the old engagement ring several years ago). And I completely lucked out when I chose wink at as the jeweler to replace the old stolen ring. he and Melissa were both so awesome! And it was so fun that I upgraded a few times while I was at it just because it was so addictive (remember, the insurance claim paid for the cost of replacing the old ring, so when I did my upgrades with after the initial replacement I only had to add a few hundred dollars here and there out of pocket... and wink had that awesome 80% lifetime buy-back option, AND lifetime upgrades for when I was actually ready to decide on the permanent Stone for a future SO.... so for a while there I was having fun playing around with the new stones with my ideal scopes, etc ). And THEN I decided to go ahead and buy a pair of "a cut above" earrings from those fine folks, and they were all awesome, too. Such a fun and exciting experience. Great people, and amazing diamonds. I went with smaller lower color options for the earrings, which helped bring down price. And I knew that company had a lifetime upgrade policy as well--- therefore eliminating any risks or problems with exchanging them for whatever diamonds a future SO would be interested in(not to mention the 70% buyback option within the first year, which I actually wound up taking advantage of--- I sold those earrings back to 'em several months ago). It was a fun (and, yes: sort of manic ) several months. I got a little carried away. And during all of that I started to get into inexpensive semi-precious colored gemstones. And I stumbled upon THIS site. annnnd I think that pretty much brings us up to the present (where I am dabbling a little bit in researching inexpensive-- and tiny-- precious gemstones).