allycat0303
Ideal_Rock
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- Nov 19, 2004
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Hey everyone,
I was going a little frantic, trying to find somewhere to vent, and then saw that Snow_Happy had sent me a pm, a while ago, and I thought to myself, maybe I should ask you ladies for some much needed support. I''ve been lurking, miserable, wondering how to get through this.
I think the most important thing to say is that I have dreamt of being a dotcor since I was 5 years old. I would literally trade anything for this to come true. I was accepted into Medical school in MAY 2004 but failed the french exam (they want an impossible score of 950/990) Just let it be noted that francophone people, are not required to take this test and usually score about 870-900, so the standard is impossible. My admissions to this school was deferred to September 2005, on the condition that I pass the french test (which after 1 whole year of studying, I realize it is almost impossible for me to attain this score)
Basically in MAY 2004, both my younger sister and younger brother were accepted into medical school. Although my sister had expressed interest in medicine previously, my brother has made it clear that he hates the profession, and has no intention of of actually practicing medicine. So basically last year, on the night of May 20th, when BOTH my younger siblings were celebrating. I was walking around outside in the dark, with my boyfriend, crying my eyes out, because I was going to watch both my siblings living out my dream. This year has been the most difficult of my life, I feel so many things, envy, regret, and this overwhelming feeling as though I am never going to be able to get out of this.
This year, I applied to med school again, and I school that flatly rejected me last year, called me for an interview. It went very well. My problem is, the University of Montreal is giving their decision sometime on May 15 to May 20, and I am losing my mind. I alternate between crying, and some state of hopefulness. I can''t sleep anymore at night, from the stress. I wake up at 2 in the morning panicked because I feel like I am going to have to spend another year at home, watching my siblings do what I have always wanted to do. In addition, my backup plan (worst case scenario) which was dentistry (you girls all helped me when I had an interview) I was placed #1 on the waitlist, they accepted only 10. Unfortunately, because of the few people accepted into this program, it is very unlikely that anyone will drop out. I just need this huge turn of luck (there''s been other major life issues i.e psycho boyfriend''s landlord, parents fighting) so I feel like I am in an endless tunnel of bad luck. So I need some advice, how to get through until MAY 20th? I''ve tried positive thinking, deep breathing and everything. My boyfriend is so negative about the situation (he said "Even if you had the perfect interview you probably won''t get in" not because he''s putting me down (I know it sounds terrible) but he is just beaten down by the process. Everytime I cried this year, he was there to hold me up, but I think at this point, he''s worn out. He can''t give me any positive thoughts, because he doesn''t believe it could possibly happen. SO HELP me get through the next 10- 15 days! Any inspiration, or guidence would be greatly appreciated!
I was going a little frantic, trying to find somewhere to vent, and then saw that Snow_Happy had sent me a pm, a while ago, and I thought to myself, maybe I should ask you ladies for some much needed support. I''ve been lurking, miserable, wondering how to get through this.
I think the most important thing to say is that I have dreamt of being a dotcor since I was 5 years old. I would literally trade anything for this to come true. I was accepted into Medical school in MAY 2004 but failed the french exam (they want an impossible score of 950/990) Just let it be noted that francophone people, are not required to take this test and usually score about 870-900, so the standard is impossible. My admissions to this school was deferred to September 2005, on the condition that I pass the french test (which after 1 whole year of studying, I realize it is almost impossible for me to attain this score)
Basically in MAY 2004, both my younger sister and younger brother were accepted into medical school. Although my sister had expressed interest in medicine previously, my brother has made it clear that he hates the profession, and has no intention of of actually practicing medicine. So basically last year, on the night of May 20th, when BOTH my younger siblings were celebrating. I was walking around outside in the dark, with my boyfriend, crying my eyes out, because I was going to watch both my siblings living out my dream. This year has been the most difficult of my life, I feel so many things, envy, regret, and this overwhelming feeling as though I am never going to be able to get out of this.
This year, I applied to med school again, and I school that flatly rejected me last year, called me for an interview. It went very well. My problem is, the University of Montreal is giving their decision sometime on May 15 to May 20, and I am losing my mind. I alternate between crying, and some state of hopefulness. I can''t sleep anymore at night, from the stress. I wake up at 2 in the morning panicked because I feel like I am going to have to spend another year at home, watching my siblings do what I have always wanted to do. In addition, my backup plan (worst case scenario) which was dentistry (you girls all helped me when I had an interview) I was placed #1 on the waitlist, they accepted only 10. Unfortunately, because of the few people accepted into this program, it is very unlikely that anyone will drop out. I just need this huge turn of luck (there''s been other major life issues i.e psycho boyfriend''s landlord, parents fighting) so I feel like I am in an endless tunnel of bad luck. So I need some advice, how to get through until MAY 20th? I''ve tried positive thinking, deep breathing and everything. My boyfriend is so negative about the situation (he said "Even if you had the perfect interview you probably won''t get in" not because he''s putting me down (I know it sounds terrible) but he is just beaten down by the process. Everytime I cried this year, he was there to hold me up, but I think at this point, he''s worn out. He can''t give me any positive thoughts, because he doesn''t believe it could possibly happen. SO HELP me get through the next 10- 15 days! Any inspiration, or guidence would be greatly appreciated!