PrincessDijon
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O.k. so I know there are a million and one "anxiety" threads on here but none that appear to be recent...So, basically here''s my story...
I have been having extreme mood swings lately, mainly angled towards the anger spectrum and I am usually not a heated type of person but lately everything seems to be angering me....I honestly feel so bad for my bf because I usually just end up making him stay up with me all night as I cry and (sometimes yell) and then eventually make him cry and pretty soon I don''t go to bed until 6 or 7 a.m.
I definitely have had some tough times financially the last few months due to leaving my job...My SO and I worked together and I was getting a ton of heat since I was his boss....that plus 60-70 hour work weeks were mentally draining so, I thought that leaving my job would be the best answer! Then, I got a job a few days after quitting and found out that I wouldn''t be working for a month as the place i was going to was a new location....
So, at the end of May, I had the following on my plate....
1. Quitting my job without a backup.
2. Getting a job a few days later with a new company that wouldn''t open its doors til late June.
3. Still working on the pending divorce.
4. The money from the ex hubby stopping in June (gee how convenient)
5. Bills racking up from not being able to pay them...
6. Feeling ashamed for asking my FF for money to pay rent since I couldn''t get out of my lease til Sept....
So, basically these feelings have been the foundation and stem for many many more panic attacks and sleepless nights... I honestly don''t think that I have cried as much as I have in the last two months...
I really want to get help but I have no health insurance and COBRA coverage is OUTRAGEOUSLY pricey!
These symptoms are starting to get to my bf more and more and I really don''t want to ruin the great relationship that I do have...(not to mention that I am having a huge problem with low libido and back pains....probably due to the crazy stress that is going on....) Any ideas on how to get my life back????
Thanks for listening!
I have been having extreme mood swings lately, mainly angled towards the anger spectrum and I am usually not a heated type of person but lately everything seems to be angering me....I honestly feel so bad for my bf because I usually just end up making him stay up with me all night as I cry and (sometimes yell) and then eventually make him cry and pretty soon I don''t go to bed until 6 or 7 a.m.
I definitely have had some tough times financially the last few months due to leaving my job...My SO and I worked together and I was getting a ton of heat since I was his boss....that plus 60-70 hour work weeks were mentally draining so, I thought that leaving my job would be the best answer! Then, I got a job a few days after quitting and found out that I wouldn''t be working for a month as the place i was going to was a new location....
So, at the end of May, I had the following on my plate....
1. Quitting my job without a backup.
2. Getting a job a few days later with a new company that wouldn''t open its doors til late June.
3. Still working on the pending divorce.
4. The money from the ex hubby stopping in June (gee how convenient)
5. Bills racking up from not being able to pay them...
6. Feeling ashamed for asking my FF for money to pay rent since I couldn''t get out of my lease til Sept....
So, basically these feelings have been the foundation and stem for many many more panic attacks and sleepless nights... I honestly don''t think that I have cried as much as I have in the last two months...
I really want to get help but I have no health insurance and COBRA coverage is OUTRAGEOUSLY pricey!
These symptoms are starting to get to my bf more and more and I really don''t want to ruin the great relationship that I do have...(not to mention that I am having a huge problem with low libido and back pains....probably due to the crazy stress that is going on....) Any ideas on how to get my life back????
Thanks for listening!